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The Mess We Made … Together

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Caught myself grooving’ in place, first in line at the TD Bank with this song very faintly coming through their speakers.
It was a Shazam moment to capture what the song was.
Spotify did not have it yet the You Tube video, linked below, is so cute & delightful.
I am forever grateful for the Shazam app!
Hold Me Down by Family of the Year

The very next song was delightful too.
Never Let You Go by Kygo featuring John Newman.
Impressed with whoever decides what music pipes into the Bank.
A rare experience on my way in:
Parked in front and happened to catch my reflection in the window. Had a wow effect on me.
Not something I spend too much time with yet I really liked what I saw!
I look like rock star or a model to my quick glance. Interesting…
Graceful healthy appearance. Dressed in consciously tattered jeans (buy them this way), now I do not fill them in as I originally did when I bought them years ago (?2013-2015 thereabouts, I was in Scottsdale Arizona with a girlfriend staying with her, her sister & niece at her condo, rare girlfriend trip. Rock Revival Brand).
With a large leather belt with grommets cinched snugly to hold the jeans up on my hip bones,they fit more like “boyfriend jeans” now.
Formerly they hung on more by being filled in fully, haha, yet I stopped wearing them as they were annoying, I was always having to pull them up, they would ride off my figure somehow.
Paired with a unique tank that is kind of bronze with shimmering gold subtly in there too.
Put a smile on my face.


I tend to wear a pair or 2 of my fave jeans until they fall apart.
For almost 2 years, it has been on my list to purchase another “favourite Jean” yet I never get around to it.
Started raiding my own closet and making do with what I have.
I have never truly enjoyed shopping and tended to only go out when I really needed something. And attempted to be very focused- carefully curating where I go so as to optimize the speed of finding something I love very quickly.
An “in & out” mission.
I did find years ago the right Jean store for this, “G Star”.
[The only reason I did is when my fave jeans at that time 2010- 2016, was ridiculously holy. They just fit so well. I never thought to look at the brand until I had shelved them for some time. Kept going back to them. Sure enough – the brand was relevant. They use organic cotton and pay attention to fit. So a 2nd pair came along. Grey, not truly blue Jean yet they were the best fit.]
Had to search as i forgot the name. I knew exactly where the store was in West Edmonton Mall. Yet it appears that it no longer exists as a stand alone store.
Yet the spunky Simons department store (originates in Québec) does carry the brand. It is around the corner from the original location of the stand-alone store (on Europa Boulevard- where there are some fancy shmancy stores collected).
So now, I know to try Simons if that shopping day ever comes.
Or perhaps try my luck at a second hand store- some great finds in my city. Yet it takes more time. I only tend to go with a friend. Done that and enjoyed it as more of a friend date.
I guess it is quirky to share this yet feel to.

I remember being labeled as “impulsive” when it was more just an efficient style.
If I happen to be in a store and see something that matches my style, I would purchase it. Knowing that I would never go shopping for this yet it reflects my style perfectly.
So I learned that to avoid shopping centers is a good tactic.
My history of being an efficient shopper is now requiring me to be an efficient redistributor. Haha.
Learning new things with this.
I always knew that when I purchase something, I take the responsibility of tending the life cycle of the item.
Slow to throw anything away yet past recent years, always giving away in a slow steady stream.
Now, I feel to increase that stream.
I used to feel too busy to sell things.
My 2 adult kids modeled how to efficiently sell things. And they tend to purchase used too.
I am In the process of downsizing!
Not sure if i will rent a small apartment after I sell my house sometime this year or not.
Part of me does not even want to rent. Wish to be more mobile.
Anyway … selling fancy things, including a grand player piano.
Developing new skills to take responsibility for my former shopping tendencies.

Part of what I am aiming to point to is the value of beauty & quality.
I observe that many people do not value this.
Quite complex as we all navigate “getting our needs met”.
The scarcity mindset is subconsciously focused only on survival. Fear of not having enough so we need to buy the “cheapest” thing. That often ends up broken and in the garbage in shockingly short time.
Or enjoyed for a short time and abandoned (figuratively).
I have lived out both of these myself.
Kind of surprised in a way that I played out accumulating things the way I did.
Kind of counterintuitive yet it happened.
I could say a lot about what I feel contributes.
For me, I was not optimally connected to my heart yet. Unacknowledged fear.
Connection needs not deeply being met.
I allowed myself to sidetrack myself.
I hold compassion for myself. I certainly am not the only one who fell into this trap.
I definitely hold more value to experiences and connection now.
Things- likely less is more.
AND I do not have to own things.
I simply wish to live abundantly:
Having what I need to have when I need to have it. And coming in naturally with ease and grace.
I have a vision of how this could work widely for everyone as we shift our focus to what truly and deeply matters.

A fun example:
I have always dreamed of driving an exotic car. Never have I wanted to own one. There exists places where a person can have this experience at a relatively affordable price.
My upgrade of that (which requires big shifts in the economic systems) is more community collaboration all around.
Many collective tool sheds (this does already exist) where a person can borrow a chainsaw or whichever that is needed from time to time. Not so many people would require full time ownership.
YET a level of self responsibility is required.
There are people who would naturally assist in maintaining the tools and training people to use safely.
Simply one tiny example of how unity community can live out.
(Unity does not require agreement, yet it is a choice and vibration.)

Consider food distribution:
Keeping it local is much more possible than most cities experience.
Again- some people are so naturally suited to work in and develop new more community focused systems.
These passionate people are ridiculously underutilized. They have not even been invited to the table. Proper round table community solutions-oriented collaboration does not appear to even exist widely yet.
Not to stop all import/export but to do so in a more soul sustaining way.
Before this and many other shifts can take place, we do require some “healing” to enable more respectful discussions to truly table the challenges and problems at their MOST FUNDAMENTAL level.
Human possibility is infinite. Yet our current systems have us squeezing into divisive stances. Clamouring for the financial resources to keep this weird way of living alive.
None of us developed our “coping strategies” in a vacuum.
I feel we have collectively made a mess … AND we are fully capable and response-able to clean it up now.
[trusting you are able to sense what I am pointing at].

I guess the reason I choose to express today is to demonstrate “insight” into my own “neurodiversity”.
Yes, I am teasing both my audience and myself. Yet miracles do occur when we change our perspective. For me this is the definition of a miracle.
To keep doing things the way we have always done (and expect health, harmony and abundance for everyone) strikes me as a wee counterintuitive. [understatement]

I ask: Do you value health, harmony and abundance for everyone?
If not, WHY NOT??
If yes, let us all collectively begin “walking our talk”.
I feel ready & willing.

Underneath this type of discussion, fundamental questions lurk:
Do you believe we live in a true democracy?
Does Corporatocracy better label our current system of systems?
Digging into the definitions is worthwhile.
Another one:
With our current “state of affairs” is democracy even optimal to start living collectively with true vision?
When everyone is a bit broken and traumatized, can we even trust ourselves to vote with vision?
Are our candidates we are offered to vote for healthy? Traumatized? Hold integrity? Self aware? Embody a vision for health, harmony and abundance for everyone?
“There is much to do.
We must go very slowly.”
Ruth Kohn

I deeply offer that this is golden advice.
If our world functions like children fighting in the schoolyard, perhaps we require more than simple “elections”.
We do need to raise the stage and change the conversation in my opinion & experience.
There are so many pitfalls it looks to me like one big pit, the Grand Canyon.
I cannot imagine a world with harmony, health and abundance that does not begin by normalizing true discussion and collecting perspectives.
Allow people to participate and engage in this process voluntarily.
Let us sort out who offers the capacity to work together with an inspiring, heart & soul enriching vision.
Yes, that may not yet include many people at first. Yet to model how this might look would enable more people to witness and feel for themselves that much is possible when we optimally collaborate.
The blame, shame, ridicule weapons will need to be left at the door.


A framework can develop for us all to learn how to have what will start out as “tough conversations”.
Left thinking of the simple advice I heard Barney sing so many years ago when I enjoyed children’s entertainment with my 3 children when they were young.
To my ancient soul, I feel our society is in kindergarten.
Time to begin Grade 1 now.

OMG- tickled pink to find a 1 hour loop of a version of The Barney Cleanup Song. Click bold title to view.
I sincerely ask us all, myself included of course, to take this simple message in for as long as it takes to truly embody it.
I challenge you to see how far you can get in this video. I stopped at 2:38 after a couple fast forwards to see that it is simply a loop of a very short clip. Heyoka!!
It is also quite fun double time, try it!
Consider playing it while falling asleep – subliminal messaging. Haha, I am getting silly. Gotta laugh.
Here is a 3 minute 32 second loop version of Barney’s Cleanup Song. Also pretty funny.
Love the looping! This feels pretty symbolic to how I view the way our world functions as a whole. Stuck in a loop.
If looping maintains us in this mess, can looping get us out?
A rhetorical question.
Again, I tease.
For the fast learners in the crowd, a 32 second version. Only 2 times loop.

Addendum
I came across this masterful prose recently that speaks to how we can graduate from kindergarten:
Copy pasted from my Authentic Family Facebook Page:
Read this over twice.
Well articulated description of the power & value of the journey of self-awareness.
Who would consciously choose to be “a walking haunted house”?
Wow!
Had to share.
START PROSE (shared by Cosmic Dancer FB Page):
It takes guts, care and heartfulness to journey into self discovery.
To make your darkness felt, to touch your wounds with balm.
Embracing your heart, speaking with your soul and tenderly caring for every inner inch of you; allowing your energy to flow snake like inside, unblocking and encouraging the shedding of old ways, takes bravery and courage.
And yet doing it, brings your body, power, knowing and self love.
I will always choose this, over the dull ache, the gnawing at my bones and the terror in my heart that comes from self avoidance. I will choose life over being a walking haunted house.
Brigit Anna McNeill

I feel this expresses something that is very relevant to our current mess in the world.
How “haunted” are you?
You may not even real-eyes that you are haunted.
It is so common to be perceived as normal.
Are we all just a bunch of haunted houses feeding more trauma into already traumatized people?
There is something to this.
Awareness is 90%, I always say.
Simply acknowledging deep foundational truth naturally leads to inspired, optimal, soul-aligned action.
I dream of the day, coming soon I sense, when we are all more capable of connecting to our true essence.
Stop the bleeding, metaphorically, and create containers for people attuning to their natural human state.
I deeply believe that we are naturally caring and compassionate, once we “exorcise the demons in each our own haunted house”.
Let our health systems enable and empower us all to do this.

Found on a memory from my personal Facebook page Sept. 1, 2021 posted to myself, private, about my passion to resurrect Conscious Journalism. 
(So the pic does match that desire- see below).

Comments came in over the successive days:
A new idea has come to my mind.
Time will tell how it will play out.
I have a category within my body of work titled “Fucked Up? Focus on Solutions”.
I would love to model Conscious Journalism on a topic or 2.
It actually takes a bit of time to collect data from various sources.

2 topics in my mind then [September 2021]:
1. The holistic picture of what is going on in the ICU beds in Edmonton. The MSM (Mainstream Media) has frightened people out of their humanity a bit.
I intuitively suspect that when the whole story would be allowed, the fear may be completely transformed. Highest relevant Truth has a way of transforming fear.
2. Collect data about how many people have had suspension of either their electricity services, their natural gas services or both due to lack of financial ability to pay.
And then summarize options for anyone who might find themselves in this position.
Also, look to create a new system for supporting people to maintain services to live in comfort even when financial challenges exist.

I may create a new You Tube channel, FUFOS Journalism.
I would love to attract some collaborators for this type of work.
The Journalists seem to have forgotten their role. [or veered off a long ago vision?]
I would love to explore that issue also.

I have compassion. It is an issue of the journey of evolution of human consciousness.
What is required is increased understanding.
Not blame, shame, ridicule or persecution great or small.
I sincerely and deeply believe this.

Forgot to mention some of why I am interested in understanding what is going on in ICU- Intensive Care Unit.
My family shared with me their perception, via MSM that it is non-vax People “overwhelming” ICU’s.
There was even a mention of future triage that may require turning away non-vax people that may require medical attention. The frequency of this had a tinge of tyranny energy to my sensibilities.
Within 24 hours, I noticed an “alternative” media story – I think Toronto?
The Toronto video I came across. Click bold title to view.
A man who claimed to be a physician employed at the hospital working in ICU who stated it was vaxed people who were clogging up ICU.
Neither of these stories leaves me feeling that I understand what is truly going on.
Both types of media have not earned my full trust.
Truly, anyone with high integrity would desire an accurate understanding of what is going on.
Yet if only conclusions are shared, without transparent open access to the data, we take great risk.
I have personally been censored on social media so that leaves me wondering who is censoring and why?
Until I receive an explanation that makes sense and FEELS true, I am quite leary to join everyone in the conclusions.
AND do we wish to leave the media bearing the responsibility of keeping the public informed?
I imagine that was the purpose of media in some minds at some point.
Level of consciousness: absolutely essential to ensure people working in this role have reached the threshold where integrity is maintained.

Human nature as it commonly exists creates challenges to integrity at many turns.
This made me realize that each main camp in the v2$$in3 issue watch completely different media systems.
Somehow, I choose to keep a sideways eye on both.

One hypothesis I have in mind: is there a conscious divide and conquer strategy?
If there was, and everyone only views their “own” media, nobody would eeeever realize.
I am a bit tongue in cheek here.
[history does hint at this. Over and over.]

Non-biased reporting of issues. Is this possible?
I do not know.
I am aware of my own sense of things with my life’s experience. Is that called bias? (Feel so?)
Hence:
Tribunal – formal, transparent discussions of collective multiple views on important topics that impact everyone. However, there cannot be exclusion of a perspective for highest function.
OR
Vigorous, respectful formal debates.
Again- we would need to hear all voices/perspectives.
[2022- not feeling too keen on debates. Conflict has a negative feedback looping effect on everybody. To my observation.
Wish to start some positive feedback loops now.]
Where things have landed these days, it might make sense to make all proceedings publicly viewable.

“Absolute Candor”.
It might take a while.
Yet, when everyone feels properly heard in a safe container (or stage), that can lead to optimal solutions that work for everyone. And the understanding that creates Unity. Agreement is not required.
It is likely that this process would drive new questions into the forefront. Address concerns of people.
The main way to know if it is successful is for the concerned people to state that it is.

I wrote by hand a long list of questions to ask in order to more widely understand what is happening in ICU.
MSM soundbite: 95% full.
My initial line of questioning would ask for the number of total beds now, 1 year ago and 5 years ago.
For a start.
Fear-inducing facts without some context : I call that pr0p0g4nd4.
(See what I did there. I have learned how bots work… a bit).
Truly more powerful to share this 1 year later in 2022.
This little media frenzy was quite short-lived. Feels forever away now.
Interesting how that worked, dontcha think?

Got this idea from Picard Season 1, Episode 4, titled “Absolute Candor”.
A subculture of the Romulons live with absolute candor.
I do hypothesize that human evolution is heading in that direction.
Naturally, psychic/extrasensory perception comes online as an individual optimizes.
Secrets cannot be kept to one’s self at some point.
It is time to prepare for this.
When this is embodied by a higher percentage of us, the whole journalism discussion will become moot.
This quote is animated by this true nature of an optimized human being.
Truth-meter function. Coming soon [to a theater near you, haha].

“True disclosure results in a vibratory shift that will not generate debate, but a new state of being.”
Laura Eisenhower


This requires Impeccability with word choice along with love & compassion in one’s heart at its highest level. Develops alongside integrity, naturally.
It is already here yet not so front and center for everybody.
Subconsciously, we know more than we realize.
[Non violent communication: a system of trainings and written materials exist. My recommendation, get started at your earliest opportunity.]

“Living in the heart rather than the head will finally turn the world upside down, which the heart will view as right side up.”
Suchi Kumar

“A tulip doesn’t strive to impress anyone. It doesn’t struggle to be different than a rose. It doesn’t have to. It is different. And there’s room in the garden for every flower. You didn’t have to struggle to make your face different than anyone else’s on earth. It just is. You are unique because you were created that way. Look at little children in kindergarten. They’re all different without trying to be. As long as they’re unselfconsciousnessly being themselves, they can’t help but shine. It’s only later, when children are taught to compete, to strive to be better than others, that their natural light becomes distorted.”
Marianne Williamson

“You have a unique message to deliver, a unique song to sing, a unique act of love to bestow. This message, this song, and this act of love have been entrusted exclusively to the one and only you.“
John Powell


Posted on my Facebook page September 1, 2012 by a new friend I had met at a chocolate party.
“You have the most beautiful soul Angele! Thank you for sharing it and being your authentic self. It is breath taking and inspiring.”
Looks like I have needed much reminding.
I feel this is Universal. Let this article remind you that you are all the same yet unique in your expression of your beautiful Soul.

Now I validate myself.
I am the way I am for good reason.
I AM.
I repeat this more than any other phrase recent months.

I, like all of us, simply wish to be my authentic self and connect with other authentic selves optimally.
Naturally, we all wish to meaningfully serve a soul-aligned role in the wider game.
I include here a link to a touching 2 minute piano instrumental cover of Barney’s famous “I Love You” song. Click bold title to listen.
Wistful and nostalgic.
Truly, lip service is not enough.
More and more, I experience how limiting words can be.
They can tend to keep us stuck in our minds, disconnected from our hearts.
Connecting through the heart … makes all the difference.
I Love You … Beyond words and time.
Wisdom and Love are everywhere … when you are attuned to your natural essence you will see clearly.

In a nutshell:
I wish to be part of the solution.
The whole solution.
Nobody can do this alone.
Time to unite.

A little Heyoka therapy here. I tease you along with myself. Click purple word for a Wikipedia explanation of the spirit of Heyoka, the sacred clown. Perhaps gives some insight on why I chose to playfully include some preschool Barney songs in this article.

For deep consideration:
Quote Book 5: Ringing Cedars Book of Kin, by Vladimir Mégré:
” … just a sincerely asked question, together with the parent’s desire to hear their child’s answer, is capable of uniting parents with their children – of making them happy – for ever.

This joint quest for happiness is infinite. But even the beginning of the quest can be called a state of happiness.” Anastasia (p. 132)

Let this article serve as a Love Letter … to everyone.

I am putting this together September 5, 2022. The main bulk written into a note on my phone on September 1, 2022 after the seed was planted with the Disabled Angel post this day.
A beautiful message shared by Michaela Sheldon:
Some spiritual teachings ask us to rid ourselves of the ego. Yet in today’s social and technological age, the ego can easily run rampant. In every channeling I have ever done about the ego, the Guides ask us not to lose it, but consider its purpose and power. If we ‘know thyself’, we are able to bear witness to the beauty that exists within others.

“𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘎𝘰𝘥 [frequency] 𝘪𝘯 𝘮𝘰𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯, 𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘰𝘯𝘢𝘵𝘦 𝘢𝘵 𝘢 𝘧𝘳𝘦𝘲𝘶𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘺 𝘰𝘧 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦. 𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘷𝘪𝘣𝘳𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘵 𝘢 𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘴𝘭𝘰𝘸𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘫𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘰 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘪𝘯 𝘱𝘩𝘺𝘴𝘪𝘤𝘢𝘭. 𝘐𝘮𝘢𝘨𝘪𝘯𝘦 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘪𝘯 𝘶𝘯𝘪𝘲𝘶𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘮𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘭𝘺 𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘤𝘪𝘢𝘭 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦! 𝘛𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘦𝘨𝘰’𝘴 𝘱𝘶𝘳𝘱𝘰𝘴𝘦. 𝘐𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘥𝘦𝘴𝘪𝘨𝘯𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘰𝘣𝘴𝘦𝘳𝘷𝘦 𝘪𝘵𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘢𝘴 𝘢 𝘥𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘷𝘢𝘭𝘶𝘦𝘥 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘱𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘢𝘯𝘺 𝘤𝘰𝘭𝘭𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘴𝘤𝘪𝘰𝘶𝘴𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴. 𝘛𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘯𝘯𝘦𝘳 𝘷𝘪𝘴𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘵𝘳𝘪𝘣𝘶𝘵𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘢 𝘣𝘢𝘭𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦𝘥 𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘴𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘵𝘺 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘱𝘶𝘳𝘱𝘰𝘴𝘦, 𝘴𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘰𝘱𝘱𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘶𝘯𝘪𝘵𝘺 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘴𝘱𝘪𝘳𝘪𝘵𝘶𝘢𝘭 𝘦𝘷𝘰𝘭𝘶𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘢𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘰𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘥𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘴. 𝘞𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘥𝘪𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘦𝘴 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘷𝘢𝘭𝘶𝘦𝘥 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘢𝘤𝘤𝘦𝘱𝘵𝘦𝘥, 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘦𝘨𝘰 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘪𝘵𝘴 𝘯𝘢𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘢𝘭 𝘱𝘳𝘦𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘱𝘰𝘴𝘪𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘰 𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘱 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘥𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘢𝘮𝘦. 𝘈 𝘣𝘢𝘭𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦𝘥 𝘦𝘨𝘰 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘴𝘶𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘪𝘯 𝘢 𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘴𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧-𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦, 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘥𝘴 𝘴𝘱𝘢𝘤𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘻𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘪𝘳 𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘦, 𝘎𝘰𝘥-𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧; 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘦𝘴𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘢 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭’𝘴 𝘶𝘯𝘪𝘲𝘶𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴. 𝘛𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘣𝘦 𝘯𝘰 𝘧𝘦𝘢𝘳, 𝘤𝘳𝘪𝘵𝘪𝘤𝘪𝘴𝘮 𝘰𝘳 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘱𝘦𝘵𝘪𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘮.”
𝗘𝗽𝗶𝘁𝗶𝗮𝘂𝗺, 𝗧𝗵𝗲 𝗔𝗻𝘁𝗵𝗼𝗹𝗼𝗴𝘆 𝗼𝗳 𝗖𝗿𝗲𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻, 𝘊𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘵𝘦𝘳 42, 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘌𝘨𝘰’𝘴 𝘎𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘵 𝘗𝘶𝘳𝘱𝘰𝘴𝘦

Restless Fool by Dougie Maclean. Click title to view.
My own little creation on my Disabled Angel You Tube channel May 2015.
The Fool Card in the Tarot speaks to new beginnings.
Click bolded title to view an excellent 15 minute teaser description of the symbology within the Fool Card.
It offers insight into the unique expression of visionary people, otherwise known as Authenticity.
As I have carved myself out of a former version, I have come to 3 fundamental questions I offer:
1. What is a human being, fully and truly?
2. What is Reality?
3. What is our True History?
Talk amongst yourselves.
Better yet, let us setup some new style tables for true, respectful, solutions-oriented discussion.
It will make all the difference in the world.


Returning To Love

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July 23, 2020


The inspiration for this writing was watching this full 8 minute version of the song Returning by Jennifer Berezan. (Click to view)
I feel to share my full experience with this song.

My first introduction was late 2013. It was played during a Yoga class. I attended once a week for about a year. I was so moved by the song that I stayed after class to inquire about it. I recognized the knowingness in the instructor, the twinkle in his eye as he understood the significance of the song. I purchased it on itunes. It would come up regularly on a shuffle. Sometimes I would enjoy it. Other times I skipped over it. Surprised at the varied responses (and resistance) to the song over the years.
Somewhere along the way, I chose to explore its origins on Jennifer Berezan’s website. (Click to view)
“Recorded in the Oracle Chamber in the Hypogeum at Hal Saflieni, Malta, A 6000 year old temple made for sound. . Evoking the lineage of ancient singing Priestesses, Jennifer weaves together a rich musical tapestry. A unique and beautiful blend of some of the world’s most profound sacred musical traditions. Timeless and Contemporary.“
Music truly is the Doctor. For me anyway.

Cue to November 9, 2019.
Space was held for me by two beautiful spirits, women, in an MDMA journey. We spent one day visiting The Integretron and Joshua Tree National Park. The second day was dedicated to the medicine journey. See an MDMA-Assisted Therapy Session. Click to view a 5 minute video on the subject. The song, Returning, curated with great care along with others, was the one playing as the MDMA kicked in. Wow! A peak moment.
Not the first in this life.
A simplified way to consider the effects of the medicine is that it turns off the amygdala, the source of generating fear. So essentially, it turns off fear. Oh what a feeling! I was surprised in many ways.
One, that I have been in that state many times before. Some of them have led to me being incarcerated against my will in a Psychiatric ward. What medicine calls psychosis. I prefer the terms altered consciousness or out of the ordinary experience. I have come to see these states as a kind of rotor rooter where all of the traumas (of this and other lifestreams) are flushed out. What an epic mess we have when these experiences are epically misunderstood. Hence, fully unsupported. Adding further trauma to the already traumatized human being. I authentically shared that I felt “epically misunderstood” with a Psychiatrist on my 3rd of 3 incarcerations. She proceeded to sign the legal documents that deemed me “unfit to make medical decisions for myself”. It’s a shitshow people.

I share many versions of that whole story on both of my websites. Living documents. This website and the Beauvera, Beautiful Truth, site. It is on the Beauvera site where I collect all of my Facebook Pages, linked on the site. I crosslink as I feel to. Facebook has been a personal therapist for me, but also like a huge spreadsheet where I can collect my passions and resonant ideas into categories. It is a carefully crafted web of all that I explore. When the unsustainable system of systems has nothing for me, I find my own therapy. Sometimes my own words channeled through me. Sometimes the words of others when they resonate so clearly. Requires careful curation and a high intention for optimal self-awareness. I am as aware as I am. Haha.
I jest, yet feel free to take me seriously. I have come to believe that a huge threshold available for every human being is to transcend judgment. Not the most straightforward task. Our subconscious mind is ripe with programming. Our natural state transcends judgment. I have discovered so much freedom and love for myself in the simple practice that I demonstrated above. Any adjective we might chose for ourselves threatens to judge. The English language is dualistic by its very nature. One is well served to master the use of the English language without judging, self or others. It is a journey.
Examples:
I am as beautiful as I am.
I am as compassionate as I am.
I am as understanding as I am.
I am as angry as I am.
I am as sad as I am.
I am as loving as I am.
I am as powerful as I am.
I am as fragile as I am.
I am as vulnerable as I am.
I am as sensitive as I am.
I am as intelligent as I am.
I am as creative as I am.
I am as motivated as I am.
You get the picture.
Observe how you think and what you say.
Do they match? A rough idea of how congruent you are. How coherent you are. By coherent, I am referring to an energetic state of being. Smooth flow of energy through our multidimensional self system. (Mind, body, emotions, spirit). It might be useful to find a way to measure this. I am not sure if it exists yet. But would it not be handy to measure a politician, find his lack of coherence, and choose to not allow incoherent people to hold positions of power? A Physics of Consciousness concept. Many skilled psychics could perform this task. A team of 5 might increase the safety, in case of a rogue practitioner. In this world, each individual holds greater and lesser unresolved trauma. To put too much power in any one pair of hands risks a lack of balance. The challenges are many. What if a high proportion of people are living with unresolved trauma? It is so common it is interpreted as normal. Yet our world is based on the religion of Science. Not a typo. I will not elaborate here.

We are all coming online where telepathy (for lack of a better word) is fully functioning. This is due to changing energies we are being exposed to based on the earth’s trajectory in the Universe. I will not elaborate.
How transparent can we all be? Soon, we may have no other choice.
A great time to practice this now.
Be aware of where you judge yourself and others.
Be aware of where you feel triggered by others: either what they say or what they do. Explore those triggers. Can you own them? Can you discover the source? The more we all do this, the more harmonious we can be.
I know this can sound a bit like an education. This is how I handle myself. And I am very pleased with the results.

It can be lonely, until it isn’t.
I had a Eureka moment recently listening to Adrienne Elise discussing self-care. I would love to post the video but it is in a private membership group. She helped me to integrate the concept that as we return to our true loving nature, we become much more sensitive. We feel all the feelings.
With the world churning as it is right now, so much unresolved trauma in every individual, it can be excruciating for the sensitized soul. We need to recognize this and find ways to balance having empathy for others without being overwhelmed feeling all of THEIR feelings. It is huge.
To me it explains so much about the current challenges in connecting with others. Each at their own stage of evolution. Many not so willing to consider who they truly are. It is a madhouse. Literally.

Back to the Second surprise from my medicine journey:
Just before the fear released, I felt fear so great, so illogical, so overwhelming. I could not cope. It truly did not make any sense. It piqued my curiosity, that is for sure. Like a booby trap set within my own mind. Why? To prevent me from knowing the truth of who I am? I can only include the questions. The answers are in process. I felt that level of fear at a few other times in life. Blooms of fear would rise up during my altered states/psychosis. My logical mind is a force to be reckoned with. I deeply feel the importance of knowledge outside logic, yet there is a battle that crops up in my mind regularly. I have simply decided to call it a “booby trap”. I am more interested in a true conversation about the challenges of being a human being than feeling a need to come up with any answers. I see one of humanities biggest challenges is the recurring habit to jump on answers, and then stop all inquiry. It could be the death of us.
The Illusion of Knowledge. Scares me. And is the basis of all of my fear.
I am under no obligation to be understood by you.
Quite the paradox.

Jumping out of a perfectly functioning plane, strapped to the chest of a guy who had done it about 8000 times before. I did that. March 2012.
Metaphor for life. Watch 5 minute video here, (click on title) Goofball alert! The fear I felt as I was scootching across the empty bench, attached to the pro with 4 strong links, after a plane full of experienced skydivers ran out, their 4th or 5th jump of the day – It was about 1pm- was massive. Massive fear. I felt like my mouth was filled with cotton balls. It was drier than I had ever experienced. I felt like I could not breath, I could not swallow. I was in suspended animation. I was amazed at the videographer clinging onto the wing, awaiting the capture of my exit of the plane. I know that if left to my own devices, I would NOT have jumped out. The plan was set. I was pushed out by my tandem friend for the day. Yet … the nanosecond my foot was no longer touching the plane, it was full on fun and exhilaration. What is all that about? I absolutely loved the experience. What a contrast! The fear was so real, so illogical. I would like to understand that better. How much of our world systems is based in this illogical fear. Truly. Inquiring minds want to know.
I must admit that it pains me to watch myself prior to exit. The fear I see makes me uncomfortable. Is that why we human beings trigger each other so much? Deep down, we see the fear in each other? It is uncomfortable. I now wish to come to a better understanding of the human experience. How do we make the unconscious, conscious? The million dollar question. Onwards.

Lemurian Home Coming, by Anders Holte. Click title to hear another of the powerful songs I heard during my November 2019 Medicine Journey.
The most soothing song … I have ever heard.

Addendum:

From a Kaptive Jypsy Facebook Page February 14, 2020 post:
Love can take many forms.
The Greeks talked about this.
They had a deep understanding of LOVE; they had distinctions about love that can shed light into our relationships, bringing greater clarity, joy, passion, and meaning into our lives.

Eros (ἔρως érōs) is romantic, sexual, passionate erotic love. This kind of tantalizing love is all about the pleasures of the flesh. When it is imbalanced it becomes lust. Eros is about physical attraction and beauty. In order to sustain this carnal love, it’s essential to couple it with the other expressions of love below.

Philia (φιλία philía) is deep friendship, the affectionate love we have with friends. It’s brotherly and sisterly love founded on a sense of equality and loyalty. Real friends support each other; they communicate openly. They hold each other up and relate in a way that inspires one another. When imbalanced, it becomes codependent.

Philautia (φίλαυτος) is self love. Before we can really love another, it’s essential to authentically love and care for ourselves, and feel comfortable in our own skin. There is a balanced and imbalanced expression. The imbalance is vanity and narcissism; the balanced is self-compassion and embracing all aspects of ourselves — the light and shadow.

Ludus is playful love. It’s frisky, flirtatious love that expresses itself as lighthearted teasing. It’s fun! Bringing a joyful sense of childlike innocence, and a tinge of Eros. When you experience Ludus you feel the juicy spark of excitement! When out of balance, it can express itself as insincere and fickle.

Pragma is a longstanding love. This expression of love has matured over time. We see this expression of love in couples and friendships that have withstood the test of time. It’s practical and cooperative, with qualities of patience and acceptance. When imbalanced it leads to rigid expectations.

Storge (στοργή) is familial love, such as the love and affection that a parent has for a child, and vice versa. It is unconditional; it has a strong sense of commitment and responsibility. The imbalanced expression is smothering a child, influencing their path in a way that is not authentic to them, and creating undue dependence.

Agape (ἀγάπη) is Divine love. Love for everyone; unconditional, selfless love. This is spiritual love; the highest form of love. It expresses itself as infinite compassion. It has nothing to do with conditions. It is transcendent and all-encompassing.

And the English language attempts to stuff aaaall of this … into one word.
No wonder we are so confused.
I know I sure am.

Afterword:
A big download came in for me just as I thought I was complete.
I was reminded of how the bloom of fear brings to mind the stage of delivering a baby called the “transition phase”. I had noted this immediately following the journey itself. To discuss new concepts, it is helpful when useful analogies are discovered. Maybe it is not new. Better termed “not within the common collective awareness”.
I am a retired Family Physician so I have witnessed quite a number of births in addition to experiencing my own 3 children’s births.
I needed to refresh my memory via a google search. My first guess to describe this phase of labor was “quickening”. Yet that is when the mother consciously feels the first movements of the fetus within her body.
I found a link for the Stages of Labor. See below for the relevant section Copy/Pasted.

Transition Phase

What to do:

During this phase, the mother will rely heavily on her support person. This is the most challenging phase, but it is also the shortest. Try to think “one contraction at a time” (this may be hard to do if the contractions are very close together). Remember how far you have already come, and when you feel an urge to push, tell your health care provider.

What to expect:

  • The transition will last about 30 min-2 hrs
  • Your cervix will dilate from 8cm to 10cm
  • Contractions during this phase will last about 60-90 seconds with a 30 second-2 minute rest in between
  • Contractions are long, strong, intense, and can overlap
  • This is the hardest phase but also the shortest
  • You might experience hot flashes, chills, nausea, vomiting, or gas
  • Tips for the support person:
  • Offer lots of encouragement and praise
  • Avoid small talk
  • Continue breathing with her
  • Help guide her through her contractions with encouragement
  • Encourage her to relax between contractions
  • Don’t think that there is something wrong if she seems to be angry – it is a normal part of the transition

To get to the point, I feel sooo many of us are stuck in the transition phase of birthing our true selves.
I think the tips for the support person are incredibly on point. Kind of the opposite of what most people receive in their experience.
This is a remembering of the Eureka moment I saw clearly after my medicine journey. Partly because I was still caught within the damn transition phase. Perhaps I still am.
Yet to use this analogy, it helps me to possibly explain to others so we can collaborate to come up with solutions to allow the natural process to occur. It appears to trigger fear in us. When we understand what this is, awareness is 90% of the journey there. The last 10% could occur in the blink of an eye. I have always known that. And yet … my fear keeps blocking my natural transition. Anybody else?

To spell it out:
In order to properly support another, it is often an individual with some experience themselves. Or possibly has witnessed graceful examples enough to have collected some wisdom. The natural panic that appears to be consistent – for reasons that I feel some light may soon shed upon- needs understanding before optimal care plans can be determined.
My sense: not so many with experience or wisdom in the natural evolution of a human being.
They exist.
If you know where to look.
Yet, they have to be a bit wary. They will run into that illogical fear and panic. People can get hurt. Either party or both.
Fine-tuning of the intuition is our best defense as far as I can see.
Sounds easy. And yet … here we all are.

I will admit here also:
I was given a choice for a 2nd tablet of the medicine. I had nothing to base my decision on. I chose to not take it. I wonder how it might have gone if I had?
I am now a little fearful to ever have another medicine journey of any kind. Considering how much help I have received via the 4 Journeys, only this one with MDMA, it does not hold logic.
Fear of the unknown? Yet each time I get to the other side, it is kind of a Non-event. Because I just get closer to who I actually am. I am very familiar with myself as we all are with ourselves. The paradox again.


In a nutshell:
Too much brain entrainment.
Not enough connection to the heart intelligence. Yet.
We, as a society, are out of practice.
Things can change in a heartbeat.

Fear Factor (An article I wrote on the topic of fear years ago). Why does it feel so real?

Be The Change

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“When we open ourselves to truly listen, we risk being changed.
Loss of identity itself.”
My best friend Chris’ comment after hearing me read the following message.

Would you be willing to listen?
My story, in a nutshell, and what/why I am inspired to do next.
I recommend you listen with your heart while you read with your mind.

I read the message February 2017 in this linked 14 minute video, an edited text is below. No longer matching exactly the original version.

July 2017 Reading same message.
A few adlibs. With additions added July 2017 it is no longer the same piece. I encourage people to read it.
But … take a quick look at me in the two videos.  A documentation of my state of being at two separate points this year. Upgrades are apparent to my eye. See for yourself.
Begin formal piece …

Ghandi’s famous quote:
Be the change you want to see in the world.

I translate and clarify to:
Optimize yourself and you will optimize the world.

Pond at La Maison

Balanced spirituality was the road I took.  The good news: there are likely infinite ways to get to the destination of optimal human being. Your creativity will figure out the best for you.
Essential that each individual is the authority for their own path. I cannot stress this enough. It can feel futile.
One way I look at this is that I am the artist formerly known as god. And you are too.
Our creator function, as a fundamental quality of our human consciousness is not optimally recognized. Yet.
Many people take on a disempowering template without realizing. Our history and cultural conditioning has us not recognizing our own creative capabilities.
We can play any role we put our mind to. Our ability to cognitively frame our experiences is the Holy Grail. Never fully actualized until we learn to follow the river of our feelings. Connect our heart and mind optimally. Discover our deepest authenticity. The idea that we have sovereignty has come to feel scary and unknown to us. To take responsibility for our self is counterintuitive with our systemic conditioning as it commonly exists today.
Systems in place, generations ago, have inadvertently disempowered the individual. Many roadblocks exist to allow widespread empowerment of the individual.

A very important key for me:
When I ask the optimal question, I get the optimal answer.
Begs the question: how do I know that I have asked the optimal question? When the answer results in action/knowledge that leads to an optimal result.
The next burning question:
How to define optimal when looking at the result?
Another good question.
Often the questions are more important than the answers.
Optimal is in the eyes of the beholder. In the real world, the beholder is ever evolving. Yes!
The questions more than the answers need to evolve alongside.
If everything is functioning optimally, a spiraling upwards will be the result.  The endpoint will not be static but dynamic.
Hope I have not lost you.

This is the process I have undertaken in my life.
Over and over. And over. For 50 years.

Before, during and after Medical School.

Before, during and after I practiced as a Family Doctor. An 11 year career.

Before, during and after a 16 year marriage to a Canadian with parents born/raised in Mauritius (African country) and grandparents originating in China.

Before, during and after giving birth to 3 children, now aged 12,16 and 19 years.

Before, during and after exploring a number of systems – catholic religion, education advocacy, business ownership, investor, small-scale philanthropist, philosophy, spirituality. Etc.

Before, during and after a powerful love-at-nearly-first-sight meeting of a man in November 2011. Somehow he acted as a catalyst in turning on unconditional love within me. He documented different flavored significant challenges of his own on Facebook since our meeting. We are acquaintances but have not yet explored relationship in any tangible way. Somehow I feel capable of tracking his optimization which at some point synchronized with my own.

Before, during and after experiencing 3 episodes of altered consciousness termed psychosis by Medical Science. May be more optimally termed a mystical experience. Click here to here Jason Silva describe a mystical experience.

It could also be termed Cognitive Ecstasy. Another 3 minute Shot of Awe from Jason Silva: The Ecstasy of Curiosity.

Third Shot of Awe: Paradise Engineering.

Four is a magic number: Jason tackles the question, What is Brain Coupling?

The last on my summarized list of relevant experiences (I applied my optimal questioning to).
Before, during and after exploring countless alternative health practices with the goal of optimizing my health.

 

A personal mission statement evolved:
To Enable and Empower Optimal Human Health.

 

I am not going to try to connect all the dots in this message.
I will now jump to a framework that I have come to. It is not new. Dates back over a Millenium.
The Chakra energy system described in Ancient Eastern philosophies. It is used in many alternative healthcare practices.
I want to describe my cognitive framing of my acute Psychiatric condition from the Chakra viewpoint to exemplify how it helped me to be in the most optimal state I have yet known. Now.
I believe the framework can help anyone to optimize their health too.
As people are doing and have done since its origins.

I do not believe it is necessary to get there via the involuntary Psychiatric System. I made choices that led me to get there via this commonly feared route. To understand why, could help many who likely would want to sidestep that one.

*Chakra Hypothesis of my condition here:

Medical Science described my condition in October 2012 as a manic episode with psychotic features.
I will use the Chakra System vocabulary.
In the setting of my active, enthusiastic efforts to “self-actualize”, I educated myself in ancient wisdom. Eastern philosophies were embraced on the backdrop of my Christian knowledge. I connected strongly that Jesus Christ was an exemplar of self-actualization. An achievable state for anyone. I read two books describing two recent examples of optimized human beings with capabilities impossible by consensus knowledge in today’s systems.
Anastasia by Vladimir Megré and Autobiography of a Yogi by Yogananda. I avidly expressed transcendent spirituality without the important grounding of it into real life activities. I was attempting to escape what I viewed as a tainted reality. I actively avoided uncomfortable feelings with the misguided idea that I could help the world by putting blinders on and see only love and light. Because I would emanate “magic” love, like Jesus.
An unbalanced interpretation of spirituality. What now feels like a misinterpretation of the ancient wisdom. I could not embody the optimizing energies due to the blockages at every other level of my energy system.

 

I received treatments with a handful of alternative practitioners helping to optimize my “energy systems”. I obtained three treatments in one week, against practical judgment, the week prior to my acute episode.
My crown Chakra opened fully allowing a sudden, dramatic increase of energy to flow through the Chakra system.  There were significant blockages at the other 6 chakras. Suboptimal. My physical system was overwhelmed.
Continued, enthusiastic explorations, treatments led to optimizing the other 6 chakras. Which occurred only weeks ago in January 2017. It has been scientifically recorded that the background Schumann Resonance energy of the earth has risen dramatically in this past month. The slow and steady optimization resulted in chakras 100% open, lined up optimally, blocks cleared.

 

It was the imbalance in my Chakra system as the foundational problem. The framework describing the genetics and biochemical imbalance theories are not helpful. In that framework, I had a lifelong brain disease without a cure. In my framework, there is great hope for optimization.
Physics trumps biology.
Mindset over matter.

 

A big differentiating factor about me is the way I questioned the chaos and lack of harmony around me. To my mind, that is the most relevant difference.
A mindset. Nothing more. Nothing less.
Truth is relative.
And each of us has more choice than we have been trained to believe.
Fantastic news.
Alternatives exist.
Are you willing to explore?

If I were not uniquely me, I would never have been able to withstand what I call “the crabs in the bucket” phenomenon. My attempts to disconnect from the traditional disempowerment template would have been quashed by the suboptimal  belief system in place within Traditional Psychiatry. And the world at large.

I flirted dangerously with chemical incarceration. Legal authority held by my attending Psychiatrist on my third involuntary inpatient hospitalization, May 2015, was used to write up a certificate of incompetence. A second psychiatrist’s opinion was sought. Two psychiatrists’ signatures was all it took to disempower me in making my own treatment decisions. Treatment with antipsychotic medication was their choice.

I feigned compliance just enough to extricate myself from their grip.

I will be forever grateful to my French Canadian heritage. Sovereignty and empowerment are fully supported. My family left me to my own devices. Not common in the greater society of patients labeled as I have been. Family and loved ones concern and caring morphs into control and disempowerment in the wink of an eye.

February 2, 2017. The day I started tapping this into what became a very long note on my iPhone.

Backdrop:

I entered into a discussion on a Psychiatric Survivor Facebook group about whether all psychotic episodes are also a spiritual emergency. The discussion reminded me how suboptimal questions can leave us “stuck in a loop” indefinitely.

 

I saw a play, “Disgraced”. A very timely play about the glorious human messiness of being of Islamic origin living in the western culture of North America. It was days following what the news called the “Quebec City Massacre”. A gunmen shot and killed 6 muslims in their place of worship during active worship. How can this happen?
Yes indeed.
The play artistically gave a human story about how each of us can become an animal when we are not treated humanely.
The wounds are deep and widespread.
Driving home, I felt a deep compassion. For us all.
I asked myself a familiar question:

How can I be truly helpful?

The perfect storm of events that day led me to share my experience in this way.
The solution is human optimization.
One individual at a time.
Starting with myself.
We are all connected.
Our energetics influence each other.
Human abilities like strong intuition leave no thought held without another possibly tapping into it.
Lip service is not enough.
It is optimal to embody empowering, loving, inclusive, nonjudgmental energies.
It will spread like wildfire.
Listen to me now.
Believe me later.

I desire to find the most effective, efficient, cost-effective methods for everyone to choose from.
At the helm: the individual.
Collaboration and cooperation feels mandatory to the task of optimization of the individual.
Which comes first, enabling the individual or enabling the systems?

Peace be with you.

Not sure if all Christian Churches do this but I remember that there is a point in each Catholic Church service where the congregation shakes the hands of those seated nearby and speaks “Peace be with you” to each person in turn.

Lip service is not enough.

Light of a Clear Blue Morning by the Wailin’ Jennys, written by Dolly Parton.

 

Beautiful Truth: An Upcoming Book about Optimal Health

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IMG_3600I am writing a book.  This is the Foreword. I have an inventory of Crystal Soundhealing Bowls that I am exploring how to share optimally and be truly helpful.  Decided that writing out my perspective would aid in (foreword starts here) My Mission Statement:
To Enable and Empower Optimal Human Health.


I have been chewing on this bone for 20 years since I retired from full time Family Practice as a Medical Doctor. I sum up my Medical Career as “spitting into the wind”. I could never convince myself that my care made a difference at a fundamental level. What I do know: I want to be part of the solution of optimal health. In a Nutshell: Empower the Individual.

The illusion of knowledge … is a powerful thing. Simply look all around you. Our current perspective has created the world as it is right now. It stays solidly in place until we choose an alternative perspective.
If you want to make a change … you have to make a change.
For a start:  Time To Change the Conversation.
Too simple to be true?
Simple.
Also true.

Be open to all perspectives.  The truth is relative.1003475_406282379490459_1321870789_n

What is healing?
What is optimal health?
Healing is different for each individual.
It can be a simple relief of pain.
It can be freedom of movement.
All the way up to full self-actualization.
Our past methods have put all the focus on the healer.
I now choose to focus on the individual.
All healing truly occurs within the individual and under the individual’s control.
The biomedical model is limited in its not fully recognizing this relevant fact.
In many ways, training an individual away from their natural optimal health.
Stuck in a loop we are.
The individual is more like a film projector, creating reality around themselves than a camera simply taking snapshots of some static, solid, unchangeable environment.
Yes, this is a subtle concept challenging to grasp onto.
Not necessary to understand it.
I invite you to be open to the fact that any and all healing, better termed optimization, requires you.
To make conscious what has commonly been subconscious is a choice for you.
To hold intention, to allow, to call in, your natural optimal state is an experiment I offer to you.
We likely do not fully know what our optimal state is.
Perhaps we enjoy it now.13887040_10154515750552625_6720880372023613957_n
I do not know.
Freedom in not knowing.
I believe we all possess natural self-healing mechanisms.
We also have free will.
My perception sees many of us using our free will in a subconscious way leaving us in a limited state.
Most of us not recognizing or accessing our self-healing nature.
We, as a society, entered into a collective agreement generations ago, perhaps a millenium or more, that has led us to our current normal.
I translate to suboptimal.
Go for optimal.
It is a choice.

I have explored many modalities in search of the ever elusive optimal health.
I put a few guidelines down.
I want ease, effectiveness and efficiency with little to no side effects.
Consistent effort and exploration led me to find what I was looking for.
I now call myself a pyschokinetic health practitioner or vibrational catalyst.
Through intention, practise and support, I am able to channel energy to others to allow their own self-healer to be activated.
Alone, I can do nothing.
Any person I sit with is in full control of what they receive.
Without some openness, it is possible to receive nothing.
It cannot be forced upon you.

Each individual has to determine if they want to experiment with me in this way.
I believe in miracles.
I translate miracle into truth not yet optimally perceived.
We are caught in our own feedback loops.
We are fully able to optimize or heal, aside from our belief that we are unable.
Our beliefs hold power.
All the power.
If you want to change your health, the most effective way will be to change your beliefs.11080864_965764906768372_611062276953927716_o
The placebo effect.
The nocebo effect.
Placebo: you receive benefit because you believe you will.
Nocebo: you do not receive benefit because you do not believe you will.
Just think about the Science Fiction movie we now find ourselves in.
We have the power … but we do not realize it.
We believe in magic Scientific Research that is variously influenced by placebo/nocebo effect of the beliefs of all the participating individuals – both the researchers and the subjects.
So many cooks in the soup, we have a lot of challenges trying to interpret why the soup has turned out the way it has. And can rarely be duplicated.

To loosen our grip on the plot of this long playing Science Fiction movie, we can take ownership of our own pot of soup.
It is essential that each of us maintain sovereignty over our pot of soup.
We say yes or no to each individual ingredient.

My offering to you is a modality that is easy, effective and efficient.
The side effect profile is pristine.
Certainly shifting energy can be felt. But it passes over hours or days.
We can instruct the effects to come in with ease and grace.
They can come in over days, weeks … even months, years.943456_189898197826439_1403673714_n
I do not ask anyone to believe something they have not experienced.
I do request you to be openminded and open to an experience.
Experience is truly the best teacher.
Skepticism that is combined with an open mind is healthy.
To be closeminded is also a choice.
Live and let live is a motto I thrive on.
I do not aim to defend or convince … only offer my perspective on health.
I consider it a Beautiful Truth founded on Freedom.
Freedom to choose.
Choose consciously.
Be aware.
There are alternatives to the Biomedical Model of health and disease.

So the original question, what is optimal health?
My sense, a coming attraction … to a theatre near you.
I do not know what optimal health is.
Hypothesis: very rare in today’s environment.
That is likely to change.
When we choose it.
Go for optimal.
That’s what I plan to do.

Disclaimer: Not to replace current care you may be receiving from Health Professionals. Use your own discernment to determine your next best step in your journey to Optimal Health. Most of us, myself included, will be most gracefully served to straddle the Biomedical System while enabling the self-optimizing model.

I have collected many analogies to attempt to translate my experiences to this perspective that I share.
The most recent addition is the crabs in a bucket analogy. When collecting crabs, the large ocean dwellers, one needs only place them in a large bucket one after the other. If a crab were to attempt to escape the bucket, its fellow crabs will prevent its escape via the claws grabbing naturally. No lid required. You have likely heard the we are all connected concept. Energetically. So it is challenging to let go of old mindsets when those around you cling to them. We do influence each other. Usually with the highest of intentions. However, good intentions do not guarantee optimal results.11053637_1595319400708966_8783191660946232768_n
I have seen myself as a swimmer in the depths of the ocean. When I attempt to swim to the surface, there are many hands grasping at my ankles. I will not reach the surface until my community lets go of their grasp. Control and authority is in there.
Just another encouragement to Live and Let Live.
Fear and judgment are common in society today. To let go of judgment of another enables them to discern their best action for themselves. This is relevant to enable optimal health.
Be mindful when you interject into the life of another. Via action but also thoughts, energy. Optimal to strengthen the connection rather than worrying about or attempting to control the choices of another.
Listen to me now.
Believe me later.

I Am Smokin’

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tumblr_nobbfqTMGr1tt8knto1_1280I am dabbling in smoking cigarettes. Having never smoked in my prior 49 years up to present, it has created a multitude of ripples in my life.

A story … of course.

Something was triggered in me upon seeing this 10 minute documentary about the Naku people of South America. At 2:25 minutes you will see a brown liquid being poured into an open palm. We then see the owner of the hand proceed to snort the dark liquid into their nostril. From my own experience, I knew it to be a solution derived from soaking tobacco leaves. I never knew the details about how long the leaves were stewed or of which liquid was in the stew. My memory of my own blissful experience in August 2012 doing the same was brought to the forefront. A very gentle reaction that for me was followed by lying in a hammock by a fire and watching both the stars in the sky and numerous 1471165_652083611499797_770769792_nbats flitting about under the traditional Achuar Shelter – a thatched roof supported by simple poles. I ended up being the last in my group left by the fire. I enjoyed it so much, I had strongly considered spending the entire night out there … in the jungle. By 3:30am, numerous hours after the others settled, I tucked into my cosy bed in the hut nearby in the ecovillage in Ecuador where my  tour group was staying.

I learned that South American tribes consider 3 plants sacred:
Tobacco, Ayahuasca (a combination of two plants to my understanding) and Dartura (a potent psychoactive plant reserved for extreme cases). The first two play a role in routine life.

Then the cravings started. I took notice. They returned nearly daily for a couple of weeks until I decided to follow up my inspiration. My goal was to find out how to obtain the tobacco for snorting as I did in South America. I had planned to obtain some at the time but got distracted. Thought I would check out 10394486_1162473083777309_633180581056301835_nthe local specialty smoke shop. Did not seem likely but why not inquire?
No, no tobacco leaves available via that route.

My old Family Doctor self kicked in while in front of the counter. I started into discussion of the various products. Reviewed quit smoking strategies with the owner of the shop. My two interests were: organic tobacco only cigarettes (100% free of additives and chemicals) & Vapes.
Long story short, I purchased 2 packs of the organic Canadian cigarettes, a vape and some vape liquid containing zero Nicotine. Peach yogurt flavor. Fun! I trialed it prior to making my decision.
I was given a brief demonstration of how to vape and service my device.
Thought it would be fun to experiment with the vape with my kids.
I actually knew very little about them but felt it was a cool idea that might help smokers to quit.

As is routine, I questioned all assumptions relating to smoking cigarettes and vaping. I was surprised by some of the answers I received.

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I have been compared to Tigger. This is how I am viewed by some these days.

I wondered if smoking the natural cigarettes, no additives, were increasing risk to my health? No.
Is this true for everyone? No.
I interject here that you are unlikely to find a study looking into the health effects of a healthy adult smoking 2-4 cigarettes per day.  I know many are strongly  connected to the Medical Research Engine.  It cannot answer all questions.  Strange that many people in my life have the knee-jerk reaction that my choice is “unhealthy”.  What do they really know about it?  So many assumptions are made relating to research findings.  Not by me.
Would the regular cigarettes increase risk? (I ask myself this) Yes, the answer.
To my knowledge there is only one Canadian product meeting my specifications: CNT (Canadian Natural Tobacco).
In America: American Spirit.
So many products competing. All containing additives and chemicals.
I wonder if it would serve our population to not allow the sale of the products that have gained such a bad rap? Then again. Live and let live.
Here in Canada the taxation could be much less on the natural brand to bring its price below the standard product. Presently it sits more expensively on the shelf. My rudimentary research found that many smokers would prefer it but allow the higher price point to deter them.

Many questions led me to the concept that there is a tipping point of personal energetic vibration after which pure tobacco would pose no health risk.
The level that I determined was 500.
I include a picture to demonstrate the Scale of Consciousness I refer to. Taken from the book Power Versus Force by David R. Hawkins.
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I have come to hypothesize that the healthcare for those under 500 is significantly different than for those over 500. This is extremely relevant … for those who vibrate over 500. The entire traditional healthcare model becomes irrelevant as one’s consciousness rises.
10154556_717108691663955_2967805940601250999_nI am currently writing a book to describe my perspective. I believe in Live and Let Live. My health perspective is a viable alternative for those rising in their consciousness. Yet easily attacked by those who choose, usually a subconscious choice, to live at a lower vibratory rate. It would be next to impossible for them to understand … until they choose to open their mind and consider the possibility that they control their reality much more than they have been led to believe. So when things are so real to them. They are right, considering the perspective that they hold. It is not about right and wrong but two versions of right. When someone’s mindset is set to duality, it is difficult for them to accept that two versions of right, seemingly opposite to each other, can co-exist. Yet, for those who can accept this, it is easy because we all started out with the duality mindset. So we understand fully. By design, someone in duality is unable to understand or accept this alternative that I offer.
I have no intention of defending or convincing. Simply an offer of another way to view the world. I honor and respect the free will of each individual. AND expect my own free will to be honored in turn.

Therein lies the challenge. So many people are confronted by seeing another make a choice that they would not make.  There is a simplicity when everything can be viewed as either black or white.  In my perspective there are infinite shades of grey.  Pick the one that suits you best. Let each one of us do the same. Embrace the diversity. Optimal to not impinge another’s free will choices.
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Let me list common reactions I have observed:
Label another in some way (differently than how they would label themselves). The “Us and Them” phenomenon.
Judge another as either wrong, substandard, weak, sick, broken etc.
Attempt to sway the individual to their own way of thinking – shame, blame, dictate, educate, warn etc.
Resent the other – in the example of smoking – cost the health system money, their money.
Reject – cannot associate with another who makes a choice that is not validated by the person.

So dabbling in smoking has given me a clearer view into all this than I had prior.
It has felt like a gift going through this experience as a smoker. One to two cigarettes a day turned to three to four. Occasionally a little more.
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Big decision for me: do I want to smoke? Yes … for now. I find I enjoy it. It grounds me. For those who read my stories, this is a very important function. Are there other ways to ground? Yes. I do those also. Cigarettes are handy and accessible at all times for me. I was truly surprised to feel my fullest version of 13631536_1247135395311077_2175615518363539498_nmyself seemingly clunk into place within my body. Made me wonder if I had lived with my spirit just a little askew for some time now. That may sound impossible, however, considering the multidimensional anatomy that I believe each human is comprised of, makes perfect sense. As I so often write: Experience is the Best Teacher.
Every experience shows us more and more where we need to question assumptions. Just because someone taught us something, does not make it the highest order truth for us in each moment. The truth is relative. My sense is that many of us are evolving through this lifetime so that much of our prior knowledge was relative to the time it was first discovered but does not remain relevant now. Some truths are generations old. In prior generations, very few people embodied the higher energetic vibrations that we are seeing now. Little hint: Many of our children are so when they make suggestions and recommendations, give them a good listen.

Through this exploration, I have come to see that vaping challenges the older generation. Is it harmfultumblr_static_ce5ntvwmp2gogcg408kwcso8o to one’s health? My zero nicotine blends? No. I have Pina Colada, Green Apple and Apple Cinnamon in addition to the original Peach Yogurt. I tested Peanut Butter and Jam but could not go there myself. My supplier? My daughter’s boyfriend! She was pleasantly shocked to see that I had bought a vape. Then the truth came out that he produced a line of vape liquids. So it ended up bonding me to both my daughter and her boyfriend.
Some big clouds get ripped at my house. My 16 year old son instantly showed me this vid, Vape Nation, when he first saw my vape.


Now, there are times we are all fighting over it to take our turn.
cloudsI would not have expected the many benefits I received upon exploring my inspiration in this case. One trip to the Smoke Shop has delivered a “crap-ton” (son’s word) of insights and experience.

I recently put 5000 km on a roadtrip to California. One of my favorite parts was stopping frequently at rest stops. California outdoes itself in this department. I got to experience the sensation of being scrutinized in a different way, as a smoker. Certainly California (and Oregon) are not known for their population smoking. I was in a visible minority. Certainly, I fully respected others. Many are sensitive to smoke so I was careful to separate from nonsmokers. I always disposed of my butts properly. Smokers: please be courteous with your butts. I have oft repeated, “The World is not your ashtray”. Be a responsible smoker. I have always been a slight trash collector. Now I feel extra incentive to pick up butts. Although I have done for over a decade. There was a time that I was pretty crazy about picking up trash. It was very distracting to me and I had to always walk with a plastic bag.

On this roadtrip, I picked up a hitchhiker. A first. It had been on my bucket list. I passed by about five prior to 13310408_1218218418202775_1718209989797160790_nlanding on this lovely mid 20’s Australian-origin lass. I was slow to make the decision so when I pulled over, I backed up to show her my intention. Well what a delightful experience it was! She recounted that her prior experience had shaken her confidence and had been praying for a female driver. Viola!
She mirrored my old garbage-picking self.  Every place we stopped was left cleaner by her presence.  She rekindled that in me.  Nice.
Backstory to aid in explaining just why this felt so magical.
While on my roadtrip, I felt like a switch got flipped. Roaming the Oregon Coast was over, time to beeline home. What? No big hurry, I will arrive home 3-4 days early at this rate. The original tour was left open but up to 16 days. Could not really understand why I was so inspired to head home all of a sudden. I had pre-determined that I will make a circular route. Landing on coming up through the Okanagon. I crossed the International Border at Osoyoos. Blustery would be an understatement. Started just as I was talking to the Border Officer. Wind, heavy rain. I took my first turn upon entering Canada. Found a room. Expensive. Decided to carry on all the way to Penticton. The Super 8 Motel there was awesome! My room had a lovely rose garden. I lovecould hardly pull myself away to go to bed. Rain was off and on but I had an outdoor sheltered seat. I was thoroughly tickled. Especially comparing the small dingy quarters, $50 more lakeside (across the street) in Osoyoos.

The next day I was inspired by Mara Lake. Spent 2 hours having lunch and writing the outline for a book! This definitely does not happen to me every day. It rolled off. Twenty Two Chapters. The bone I have been chewing on for 20 years. Then stopped at two rest stops, Canadian equivalent. One was an old growth Hemlock forest … pristine. Walked the short boardwalk twice. Caught in crawling traffic in Kelowna in my first driving leg. So a strange, meandering style to this day.
Only to roll up when my Australian lass needed me. Felt quite divinely timed as I look back on it.

 

Going into business with the Crystal Bowls, received a couple of calls. One was from a massage therapist in May, shortly destined to work in Lake Louise. We talked on the phone for 90 minutes and vowed to meet. I thought I would go and get a massage from her in Lake Louise. So I had contemplated arranging ahead, knowing I would drive past Lake Louise on this trip. I left it. “Let me see how it goes.”

Shortly into the drive, my hitchhiker proclaims she works in Lake Louise as a Massage Therapist. 11896242_10153137327582621_4655573233683805417_nReally? I ask her if she knows my acquaintance. Yes, her closest friend in Lake Louise. You don’t say?
Well, I met this acquaintance in person … and enjoyed a sleepover! We talked until 5am. Got up at 9am to receive a massage from my lovely Hitchhiker.

It can feel quite convenient to throw your fears and judgments around.
However, I caution you. We are all different. We are all capable of making our own decisions. It is far more harmonious to be curious when you see someone making their decisions differently to yourself.

Seek first to understand. Then be understood. One of the seven habits from Stephen Covey’s famous book.

You are likely to discover that when you remove fear and judgment, life gets a whole lot more fun. Daring comes in many shades of grey. What we really want is to develop discernment.  No two snowflakes are alike.  Human beings, the same.  Celebrate diversity.
My sense: many people live in awfully small boxes. Then they get very insulted when others do not12391920_1535354800115975_2908557961219644638_n choose a box a small as theirs. I encourage you to think about it from this perspective. At least for a moment…
Good questions for yourself: Am I living in a small box?
Could I enlarge my box … just a little?
A higher version of yourself will thank you.

Moral of the Story: Empower the Individual and a lot of the rulebooks will need to be re-written.
Systemic disempowerment is sooo last millenium.
Self-Actualization is all the rage now. 

As I always say:  I will try most things once.

Glorious

Started July 26, 2016

August 16, 2016
A strange text came through for my friend while we were together at Home Depot.  He and his son were renovating/building new segments/painting my fence.  The 10410220_1475463012712190_3291871983029928034_nCarpenter son was on site at my home while we were picking up the last few items to complete the job.  He heard the house alarm ringing and the sound of firetruck sirens was getting closer and closer.  My phone was on a little walk with my son (Pokemon Go) when I left so I was without.  Texted myself, presuming my 16 year old son had my phone.  Yes, it was a false alarm.  My basement smoke detector is wired through to the alarm system.  My puppies, I have two, inspired that little decision years ago.  Well it turns out, older technology smoke alarms cannot detect the difference between vapor and smoke.  Not unlike many people.  When mama is away, nobody else is aware of all the codes, protocol etc. to deal with a false alarm. All 3 kids were home.
A few times, we had to fan the main floor smoke detector, occasionally removing the battery for a time due to big vapor clouds finding their way and triggering an alarm.  Smoke detectors are extremely sensitive. Now I am reminded that one of my smoke detectors communicates to the Fire Department!

I was a bit disappointed that two fire trucks full of firemen came to my house and I was not even home…
Surreal experience.

 

To Give Is To Receive

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To give is to receive.12604785_1022941421077713_5572876705644528201_o
To love is to be loved.
The balance is always there.
Many choose not to recognize it.
To align with the balance is complete and total freedom.
Freedom to be yourself.
Your authentic self.

 

To give is to receive.
The gift is the giving.
The rules of money often obstruct the giving.
The rules of money can be re-written.

 

To give is to receive.
Giving can appear in many forms.
Giving can be in a loving thought.
Giving can be intentionally sending loving energy.
Giving can be doing a favour.
Giving can be an act of kindness.
Giving can be a service.
In the world today, giving can be simply being your truest, most authentic self.
Speaking your truest, most authentic loving message.

 

Giving can be playing in your most authentic self.
Simply having fun.
Some were taught that this is selfish.
But serving yourself is a gift.
A gift in your example.
A model to others.
Selfish is a word that holds little truth.
Self-loving is an art … and a science.5 yr. old autism
Self-love is an art … and a science.
To express yourself is to love yourself.

 

Expression can come in many forms.
Expression can be thoughts to yourself.
Expression can be written words.
Expression can be pictures drawn.
Pictures painted.
Photographs taken.
Songs sung.
Songs played on a variety of instruments.
The human voice is an important instrument.

 

To give is to receive.
A paradox … of Beautiful Truth.

 

(Phone rings and rings during the live transmission.)
Every time the phone rings, there is a choice.
Feel into that choice.
This is true for every stimulus that comes into your awareness.
The choice of how to respond to that stimulus.
Whether it be a sound, a smell, a sight.
The world is alive with … Perceptions.
The five physical senses.
But other senses also.
We each play our role.
We each choose our alignment.
How to use our awareness.
It is a choice.
Freedom … is available … to everyone.

 

(Exactly 20 minutes, cut off.  Was done.  I felt the blend leave suddenly.  Sat and noticed thoughts entering.  At 23 minutes, stopped. Checked video.  It had stopped at 20 min. Speech started at 9 minutes.  It is transcribed above without editing.  Came out fluidly mostly 1 or 2 sentences at a time.  Short pauses between.  It was not rushed. Very typical of how my poem-style writings come down.  My habit is to dictate into my ipad note. This is less efficient but I can be in a deeper trance.  Will keep experimenting.)

A big message I have repeatedly received is to include Raw Data.  Do not attempt to interpret for others.  Allow them to have their own experience.  Discern for themselves.  Notice I did not choose the word judge?  It was by design.
I recorded this message transmission as homework from my Mentor in Mediumship.  We had just completed a session.  I started recording this Raw Data within 10 minutes of my session with my Arthur Findlay College Tutor.  I uploaded the video privately onto the brand new Beautiful Truth You Tube Channel.  It feels very private but may be released at a future date if it served in some way.
During our session my Tutor was inspired to read an excerpt from The Prophet by Kahlil Gibran.  The introduction of the theme of Giving. By chance, the message was aligned to a part of our prior discussion.
The Excerpt he read:

Then said a rich man, Speak to us of Giving.
And he answered:
You give but little when you give of your possessions.
It is when you give of yourself that you truly give.
For what are your possessions but things you keep and guard for fear you may need them tomorrow?
And tomorrow, what shall tomorrow bring to the over prudent dog burying bones in the trackless sand as he follows the pilgrims to the holy city?
And what is fear of need but need itself?
Is not dread of thirst when your well is full, the thirst that is unquenchable?

There are those who give little of the much which they have–and they give it for recognition and their hidden desire makes their gifts unwholesome.
And there are those who have little and give it all.'Bowl of Cherries' Jean-Baptiste-Simeon Chardin (1699 - 1779)
These are the believers in life and the bounty of life, and their coffer is never empty.
There are those who give with joy, and that joy is their reward.
And there are those who give with pain, and that pain is their baptism.
And there are those who give and know not pain in giving, nor do they seek joy, nor give with mindfulness of virtue;
They give as in yonder valley the myrtle breathes its fragrance into space.
Through the hands as such as these God speaks, and from behind their eyes
He smiles upon the earth.
(My Mentor stopped here but the verse continues below.)

It is well to give when asked, but it is better to give unasked, through understanding;
And to the open-handed the search for one who shall receive is joy greater than giving.
And is there aught you would withhold?
All you have shall some day be given;
Therefore give now, that the season of giving may be yours and not your inheritors’.

You often say, “I would give, but only to the deserving.”
The trees in your orchard say not so, nor the flocks in your pasture.
They give that they may live, for to withhold is to perish.
Surely he who is worthy to receive his days and his nights, is worthy of all else from you.
And he who has deserved to drink from the ocean of life deserves to fill his cup from your little stream.
And what desert greater shall there be, than that which lies in the courage and the confidence, nay the charity, of receiving?
And who are you that men should rend their bosom and unveil their pride, that you may see their worth naked and their pride unabashed?
See first that you yourself deserve to be a giver, and an instrument of giving.12662575_1631194830477755_8110422285588180222_n
For in truth it is life that gives unto life–while you, who deem yourself a giver, are but a witness.

And you receivers–and you are all receivers–assume no weight of gratitude, lest you lay a yoke upon yourself and upon him who gives.
Rather rise together with the giver on his gifts as on wings;
For to be over-mindful of your debt, is to doubt his generosity who has the free-hearted earth for mother, and God for father.
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I received The Prophet as a gift on my 21st Birthday from my dear friend and roommate at the time. I was reminded upon reading the inscription on the first page!  I read it then.  I feel I am perceiving it differently today.  Interesting.

Freshly enamored with the compositions of Ludwig van Beethoven.
Bagatelle Opus 119  Played on Piano by Valery Affanasiev

 

 

 

 

Doubting Thomas

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11822447_1016946761670591_1140748705529861046_nDoubting Thomas.
A person who refuses to believe without proof.
A skeptic.

Here We Go. 

The Catch-22 of our times:
When using the linear, logical thinking style within the mind, the focus can be so narrow that the proof cannot fit into it.
The proof is all around us.
Yet most are not attuned to perceive it.
Hence, forever limited within a subset of human capability.
It is optimal to recognize that linear, logical thinking has a place in our world.
That place holds much limitation.
To fully access human capabilities, one is best served by being able to interact with the world using intuitive thinking also.
An alternate operating system.
Wider perspectives.
Broader capabilities.
The road to self-actualization is via nonlinear, nonlogical thinking pathways.13094417_10208473217859401_8584498587830073117_n
The road to human optimization is a magical one.
Magic is simply truth that is not optimally perceived.
Quantum.
A paradox.
Two seemingly opposite ideas both being true simultaneously.

The first step to optimally integrate this:
Appreciate that understanding is optional.
To understand is not required.
Needing to understand every detail is the most effective way to maintain the limited, logical mindset and prevent a more limitless existence.
Paradox feels the best word to describe this Catch-22.
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Dilemma.
Contradiction.
“No-win situation”.
Truly any situation can be a win-win …
If one envisions it, then chooses it.

Intention.
True intention to see optimally is another fantastic first step choice.
The logical, scientific mind commonly found in today’s power circles has conveniently set aside some important foundations within their own chosen mindset.
Most importantly: to question assumptions.
When did we stop questioning assumptions?
Why did we stop questioning assumptions?
Are we ready to ask optimal questions about our challenging problems?
Are we ready to hear, optimally hear, answers that serve the highest good for all?
How do we handle it when the answers do not match our perceived best interests?
How do we feel safe and secure when the answers challenge our coping mechanisms?
We cope with the universal wounds, templates, of unworthiness, lack of safety, lack of abundance.
Illusions.13094205_10156946018570201_5129113223569264798_n
Very. Convincing. Illusions.

We have been trained to fear uncertainty.
To the point where we prefer the cage.
Because we have grown accustomed to how we are treated in the cage.
To step out of the cage, the door has been open our entire life, feels uncertain.
Uncertainty tends to breed either fear or excitement.
Our thinking patterns developed via our family, our religious teachings, our community, our vocational training. The list goes on.

Be aware.
The path of human optimization rests on the ability to transform … transmute the fear of uncertainty into the excitement of possibility.

When there is a will, there is always a way.Drumheller, AB
Where there is a will, there is always a way.
There is a way.

Aren’t you curious?

(writing 1000)

 

(remember to breath)

(remember what’s important)

Scenic Photos were found on the Facebook Page Alberta Landscapes.
The songs are part of a lovely Travel Alberta Ad Campaign.
The Alberta Advantage … has a ring to it.

 

Telling Stories

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IMG_0993Most of us are unaware of our power to create our experiences.
We have been templated to give our power away.
We have tended to think about our life backwards.
Not uncommon to believe our self is a reflection of our experiences.
What if our experiences are a reflection of our consciousness?
I believe this is the case.
It is common to misinterpret, fail to understand our own responsibility in our experiences.
A subtle shift in focus can have a big impact.
Rather than telling a play-by-play of our experience, it will be more powerful to focus on what we want in our experience.
What within our experience matches our desires and dreams?
Take notice.  That is an optimal thing to talk about.
Ask: “Am I seeing my situation clearly?”
“Am I seeing my situation optimally?”
It is far better to not think about your present situation at all than to talk about the elements that do not match your desires and dreams.
Choose your focus.
It sounds almost too simple to be true.
It is simple.
It is true.

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Leave the questions unanswered.
Be willing to not know.
These are very difficult questions.
In a way.

 

To ask the questions with no desire to answer those questions is a powerfully creative state of mind.
Keep asking questions.
What could I do to understand my situation more clearly?
What could I do to understand my situation optimally?
How could I optimize the way I interpret my situation?
Is there someone I could collaborate with who might give me a valuable perspective to consider?
Remember… Leave the questions unanswered.
This generates a state of allowing the shifts into, or at least closer to, the dream.
OR
Simply keep dreaming up how you want your situation to be.
Dream up how you want your situation to feel.
Dream up how you want to live your life.IMG_0976
Dream up the type of people who you would share your life with.
To be specific might be suboptimal.
Might just as well be optimal.
To honor and respect the free will of everyone else is a more harmonious path.
Commonly, we do get attached to specific people.
No problem.
Keep an eye on how that works for you.
Martyrdom is so last millenium.

 

Watch carefully for inspiration towards fulfilling the dream … the dreams.
The tiniest step.
The most subtle of inspirations.
Guides you in the right direction.

 

Might ask:
Do I feel like I am on the right path now?
Could this be a step in the direction of fulfilling my life purpose?
An implication here is that you have aligned with your life’s purpose.
And if you have not yet aligned with your life purpose,
Focusing your questions and attention on the important discovery of your life purpose is optimal.
IMG_0978BEFORE … Anything. Else.
It might be easier said than done.
Choices.  Choices.

 

The bottom line is:
Get off of your own back.
Get out of your own way.
Be aware of how you are telling your story.
Are you creating a story that is sabotaging your dreams?
For your sake.
I hope not.

 

How We Create Our Own Stories….. By Sarah Johnson.
While watching, I stopped the video and dictated the above into my ipad while sitting in the sun on my back deck.
Sarah encourages us to consider how we tell our story.
I had been toying with this already.
Came to nearly identical conclusions.
This may be an oversimplification.
Yet worth a thought.
Engineering a life.
A big task.
Fun. Fulfilling. Challenging. Etc.
…when you are intending it optimally.
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Unknown Treasure – Blank & Jones (with Claudia Brücken) 701

Wrote April 30, 2016

The Optimal Caregiver

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Cobweb by Federico Sciuca: https://goo.gl/V3e2L3 #portraitsMany of us have been templated with the idea that to put ourselves first is selfish and wrong.
I encourage you to consider whether you hold to the template that creates guilt when you make a decision to put yourself first.
To step into optimal health, I recommend that you let go of the belief that you serve others best by serving yourself second.
I hold strong that the opposite is true.
When you align to your truest essence, that is when you serve others most efficiently.
Most effectively.
Optimally.
IMG_0688The old template where the woman and/or the man of the house plays martyr is best set aside for the history books.
For generations, we have modeled for our children this suboptimal template.
One can ease into this new mindset.
Just as easily it can happen overnight.

Simple tool:  ask questions.
How can I follow my passion and my family be optimally supported at the same time?
Am I willing to admit to myself what I really want?
How can I pursue my dreams?IMG_0311
How can I create an optimal life for myself?
Where I thrive.
Where I look forward to waking up in the morning and engaging in my day.
Where the day ends with fulfilment.
Only in your dreams you ask?
I warmly recommend that you question how you came to doubt your true essence and capabilities.

Another simple tool: look for solutions.
How can I make following my dreams win-win?
Every member of my family is optimally supported.
By design that includes me.
IMG_0119When I do this for myself, I model for my children how to create a fulfilling life.
If I choose to play martyr to the wishes and needs of the other members in my family over my own wishes and needs, that is a strong education I give to my children.
How to remain unfulfilled in life.
Not an optimal lesson.
I am so bold as to say that none of us would consciously choose this.

Third tool: question assumptions.
The most important assumption to question…IMG_0686
There is a commonly held assumption that the way we have been running as families is the optimal way.
It is not.

 

Just as in the music industry, we all benefit from doing a cover on the authentic family.
We take the good and we tweak it.
We upgrade it.
We recognize that we are all pioneers.
Scientists experimenting with this most fundamental ecosystem.
The modern family.

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Be authentic.
A tall order if overly connected to societal norms.
My translation of normal: suboptimal.
Go for optimal.
The optimal caregiver starts with him or herself.
When one gets that right, better termed optimally, it ripples out to others with ease and grace.
Mark my words.

 

Addendum:
Hint: The optimal caregiver has Energy.
Wakes feeling refreshed.
Falls asleep most nights with a smile in their heart, in their soul.
They nurture resilience and independence within themselves.
They nurture resilience and independence in all of the sovereign beings in their care.IMG_0847
They value the importance of love and attention.
The basic human need to be heard.
To be seen.
To be honoured.
To be loved unconditionally.
Is given optimal attention.

 

We all strive to do our best.
Our best is a moving target.
Some days we are more capable than other days.
We understand this.
We accept this.
We are this.
We are human beings.
In an optimal world, we are authentic and free.
Freedom can take a little crafting sometimes.13076715_10153393120826150_8058143179364559963_n
Be the craftsman of your authentic life.
If it is not already it will be beautiful … By design.

(1000)

 

Ellen Degeneres offers a similar message in this 4 minute video.

 

True To Myself Ziggy Marley (701)

 

Will post on my Authentic Family Facebook Page but it applies equally well to professional caregivers.
All ranges of therapists, doctors, nurses etc.
Wrote April 27, 2016

 

The Inner Child Holds The Key

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The inner child holds the key.
The key to one’s optimal health.
In the hands.
Of a child.
The inner parent has misunderstood.
Their love for the child sees the need to protect that child by taking away the key.
How can a child be left responsible for such an important and relevant task?
Another of many …
Epic.
Misunderstandings.

The inner critic approves of the rationale of the inner parent.
The inner critic and parent could exist as one distorted entity.
Or be two separate ones.
Or somewhere in between.
The adults have had their turn with the key.
For millennia now.
Stuck in a loop we are.
Time for the inner children to take a turn now.

Children naturally align to joy.
They look for.
And find.
Activities that they enjoy.
The idea of settling for suboptimal is counterintuitive to a child.
Our current normal is better termed suboptimal.
Go for optimal.
Says one’s inner child.

The inner critic is unable to meet the needs of the inner child.
The inner parent is unable to meet the needs of the inner child.
No worries.
The inner child is fully capable of meeting his or her own needs.
As long as the adults allow the natural course.
If one is unable to help,
At least do not hinder.
It is time …
To enable and empower one’s inner child.
Now.

The inner child sees clearly.
Holds no grudges despite the routine boundary-crossings in the name of love.
The child understands the good intentions behind the captivating habits of our world.
The child embraces, nurtures and treasures all aspects of itself when in the optimal state.
No need to conceptualize or label the current state of affairs.
Simply give the inner child the key that so naturally belongs in his or her hand.
The emotional GPS will instantly initiate.
The natural attraction to what feels good leads the evolution to an optimal state.

Children are silly, curious, intelligent, playful and lighthearted … By design.
It is optimal for us to keep this aspect alive and flourishing as part of who we are.
Eternally.
(1000)

Upside Down by Jack Johnson, Curious George features prominently.
Video as a whole (800)

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