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Caught myself grooving\u2019 in place, first in line at the TD Bank with this song very faintly coming through their speakers.<\/strong>
It was a Shazam moment to capture what the song was.
Spotify did not have it yet the You Tube video, linked below, is so cute & delightful.
I am forever grateful for the Shazam app!
Hold Me Down by Family of the Year<\/a><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

The very next song was delightful too.
Never Let You Go by Kygo featuring John Newman.<\/a><\/strong>
Impressed with whoever decides what music pipes into the Bank.
A rare experience on my way in:
Parked in front and happened to catch my reflection in the window. Had a wow effect on me.
Not something I spend too much time with yet I really liked what I saw!
I look like rock star or a model to my quick glance. Interesting…
Graceful healthy appearance. Dressed in consciously tattered jeans (buy them this way), now I do not fill them in as I originally did when I bought them years ago (?2013-2015 thereabouts, I was in Scottsdale Arizona with a girlfriend staying with her, her sister & niece at her condo, rare girlfriend trip. Rock Revival Brand).
With a large leather belt with grommets cinched snugly to hold the jeans up on my hip bones,they fit more like “boyfriend jeans” now.
Formerly they hung on more by being filled in fully, haha, yet I stopped wearing them as they were annoying, I was always having to pull them up, they would ride off my figure somehow.
Paired with a unique tank that is kind of bronze with shimmering gold subtly in there too.
Put a smile on my face.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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I tend to wear a pair or 2 of my fave jeans until they fall apart.
For almost 2 years, it has been on my list to purchase another “favourite Jean” yet I never get around to it.
Started raiding my own closet and making do with what I have.
I have never truly enjoyed shopping and tended to only go out when I really needed something. And attempted to be very focused- carefully curating where I go so as to optimize the speed of finding something I love very quickly.
An “in & out” mission.
I did find years ago the right Jean store for this, “G Star\u201d.
[The only reason I did is when my fave jeans at that time 2010- 2016, was ridiculously holy. They just fit so well. I never thought to look at the brand until I had shelved them for some time. Kept going back to them. Sure enough – the brand was relevant. They use organic cotton and pay attention to fit. So a 2nd pair came along. Grey, not truly blue Jean yet they were the best fit.]
Had to search as i forgot the name. I knew exactly where the store was in West Edmonton Mall. Yet it appears that it no longer exists as a stand alone store.
Yet the spunky Simons department store (originates in Qu\u00e9bec) does carry the brand. It is around the corner from the original location of the stand-alone store (on Europa Boulevard- where there are some fancy shmancy stores collected).
So now, I know to try Simons if that shopping day ever comes.
Or perhaps try my luck at a second hand store- some great finds in my city. Yet it takes more time. I only tend to go with a friend. Done that and enjoyed it as more of a friend date.
I guess it is quirky to share this yet feel to.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I remember being labeled as “impulsive” when it was more just an efficient style.
If I happen to be in a store and see something that matches my style, I would purchase it. Knowing that I would never go shopping for this yet it reflects my style perfectly.
So I learned that to avoid shopping centers is a good tactic.
My history of being an efficient shopper is now requiring me to be an efficient redistributor. Haha.
Learning new things with this.
I always knew that when I purchase something, I take the responsibility of tending the life cycle of the item.
Slow to throw anything away yet past recent years, always giving away in a slow steady stream.
Now, I feel to increase that stream.
I used to feel too busy to sell things.
My 2 adult kids modeled how to efficiently sell things. And they tend to purchase used too.
I am In the process of downsizing!
Not sure if i will rent a small apartment after I sell my house sometime this year or not.
Part of me does not even want to rent. Wish to be more mobile.
Anyway \u2026 selling fancy things, including a grand player piano.
Developing new skills to take responsibility for my former shopping tendencies.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Part of what I am aiming to point to is the value of beauty & quality.
I observe that many people do not value this.
Quite complex as we all navigate “getting our needs met”.
The scarcity mindset is subconsciously focused only on survival. Fear of not having enough so we need to buy the “cheapest” thing. That often ends up broken and in the garbage in shockingly short time.
Or enjoyed for a short time and abandoned (figuratively).
I have lived out both of these myself.
Kind of surprised in a way that I played out accumulating things the way I did.
Kind of counterintuitive yet it happened.
I could say a lot about what I feel contributes.
For me, I was not optimally connected to my heart yet. Unacknowledged fear.
Connection needs not deeply being met.
I allowed myself to sidetrack myself.
I hold compassion for myself. I certainly am not the only one who fell into this trap.
I definitely hold more value to experiences and connection now.
Things- likely less is more.
AND I do not have to own things.
I simply wish to live abundantly:
Having what I need to have when I need to have it. And coming in naturally with ease and grace.
I have a vision of how this could work widely for everyone as we shift our focus to what truly and deeply matters.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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A fun example:
I have always dreamed of driving an exotic car. Never have I wanted to own one. There exists places where a person can have this experience at a relatively affordable price.
My upgrade of that (which requires big shifts in the economic systems) is more community collaboration all around.
Many collective tool sheds (this does already exist) where a person can borrow a chainsaw or whichever that is needed from time to time. Not so many people would require full time ownership.
YET a level of self responsibility is required.
There are people who would naturally assist in maintaining the tools and training people to use safely.
Simply one tiny example of how unity community can live out.
(Unity does not require agreement, yet it is a choice and vibration.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Consider food distribution:
Keeping it local is much more possible than most cities experience.
Again- some people are so naturally suited to work in and develop new more community focused systems.
These passionate people are ridiculously underutilized. They have not even been invited to the table. Proper round table community solutions-oriented collaboration does not appear to even exist widely yet.
Not to stop all import\/export but to do so in a more soul sustaining way.
Before this and many other shifts can take place, we do require some “healing” to enable more respectful discussions to truly table the challenges and problems at their MOST FUNDAMENTAL level.
Human possibility is infinite. Yet our current systems have us squeezing into divisive stances. Clamouring for the financial resources to keep this weird way of living alive.
None of us developed our “coping strategies” in a vacuum.
I feel we have collectively made a mess \u2026 AND we are fully capable and response-able to clean it up now.
[trusting you are able to sense what I am pointing at].
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I guess the reason I choose to express today is to demonstrate “insight” into my own “neurodiversity”.
Yes, I am teasing both my audience and myself. Yet miracles do occur when we change our perspective. For me this is the definition of a miracle.
To keep doing things the way we have always done (and expect health, harmony and abundance for everyone) strikes me as a wee counterintuitive. [understatement]<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I ask: Do you value health, harmony and abundance for everyone?
If not, WHY NOT??
If yes, let us all collectively begin “walking our talk”.
I feel ready & willing.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Underneath this type of discussion, fundamental questions lurk:
Do you believe we live in a true democracy?
Does Corporatocracy better label our current system of systems?
Digging into the definitions is worthwhile.
Another one:
With our current “state of affairs” is democracy even optimal to start living collectively with true vision?
When everyone is a bit broken and traumatized, can we even trust ourselves to vote with vision?
Are our candidates we are offered to vote for healthy? Traumatized? Hold integrity? Self aware? Embody a vision for health, harmony and abundance for everyone?
“There is much to do.
We must go very slowly.”<\/strong>
Ruth Kohn<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I deeply offer that this is golden advice.
If our world functions like children fighting in the schoolyard, perhaps we require more than simple “elections”.
We do need to raise the stage and change the conversation in my opinion & experience.
There are so many pitfalls it looks to me like one big pit, the Grand Canyon.
I cannot imagine a world with harmony, health and abundance that does not begin by normalizing true discussion and collecting perspectives.
Allow people to participate and engage in this process voluntarily.
Let us sort out who offers the capacity to work together with an inspiring, heart & soul enriching vision.
Yes, that may not yet include many people at first. Yet to model how this might look would enable more people to witness and feel for themselves that much is possible when we optimally collaborate.
The blame, shame, ridicule weapons will need to be left at the door.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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A framework can develop for us all to learn how to have what will start out as “tough conversations”.
Left thinking of the simple advice I heard Barney sing so many years ago when I enjoyed children\u2019s entertainment with my 3 children when they were young.
To my ancient soul, I feel our society is in kindergarten.
Time to begin Grade 1 now.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

OMG- tickled pink to find a 1 hour loop of a version of The Barney Cleanup Song.<\/a><\/strong> Click bold title to view.
I sincerely ask us all, myself included of course, to take this simple message in for as long as it takes to truly embody it.
I challenge you to see how far you can get in this video. I stopped at 2:38 after a couple fast forwards to see that it is simply a loop of a very short clip. Heyoka!!<\/a><\/strong>
It is also quite fun double time, try it!
Consider playing it while falling asleep – subliminal messaging. Haha, I am getting silly. Gotta laugh.
Here is a 3 minute 32 second loop version of Barney\u2019s Cleanup Song<\/a><\/strong>. Also pretty funny.
Love the looping! This feels pretty symbolic to how I view the way our world functions as a whole. Stuck in a loop.
If looping maintains us in this mess, can looping get us out?
A rhetorical question.
Again, I tease.
For the fast learners in the crowd, a 32 second version<\/a><\/strong>. Only 2 times loop.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Addendum<\/strong>
I came across this masterful prose recently that speaks to how we can graduate from kindergarten:
Copy pasted from my Authentic Family Facebook Page<\/a>:<\/strong>
Read this over twice.
Well articulated description of the power & value of the journey of self-awareness.
Who would consciously choose to be “a walking haunted house”?
Wow!
Had to share.
START PROSE (shared by Cosmic Dancer FB Page):
It takes guts, care and heartfulness to journey into self discovery.
To make your darkness felt, to touch your wounds with balm.
Embracing your heart, speaking with your soul and tenderly caring for every inner inch of you; allowing your energy to flow snake like inside, unblocking and encouraging the shedding of old ways, takes bravery and courage.
And yet doing it, brings your body, power, knowing and self love.
I will always choose this, over the dull ache, the gnawing at my bones and the terror in my heart that comes from self avoidance. I will choose life over being a walking haunted house.<\/em><\/strong>
Brigit Anna McNeill<\/a><\/p>\n\n\n\n

I feel this expresses something that is very relevant to our current mess in the world.
How “haunted” are you?
You may not even real-eyes that you are haunted.
It is so common to be perceived as normal<\/em><\/strong>.
Are we all just a bunch of haunted houses feeding more trauma into already traumatized people?
There is something to this.
Awareness is 90%, I always say.
Simply acknowledging deep foundational truth naturally leads to inspired, optimal, soul-aligned action.
I dream of the day, coming soon I sense, when we are all more capable of connecting to our true essence.
Stop the bleeding, metaphorically, and create containers for people attuning to their natural human state.
I deeply believe that we are naturally caring and compassionate, once we “exorcise the demons in each our own haunted house”.
Let our health systems enable and empower us all to do this.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Found on a memory from my personal Facebook page Sept. 1, 2021 posted to myself, private, about my passion to resurrect Conscious Journalism.\u00a0
(So the pic does match that desire- see below).<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Comments came in over the successive days:
A new idea has come to my mind.
Time will tell how it will play out.
I have a category within my body of work titled “Fucked Up? Focus on Solutions”.
I would love to model Conscious Journalism on a topic or 2.
It actually takes a bit of time to collect data from various sources.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

2 topics in my mind then [September 2021]:
1. The holistic picture of what is going on in the ICU beds in Edmonton. The MSM (Mainstream Media) has frightened people out of their humanity a bit.
I intuitively suspect that when the whole story would be allowed, the fear may be completely transformed. Highest relevant Truth has a way of transforming fear.
2. Collect data about how many people have had suspension of either their electricity services, their natural gas services or both due to lack of financial ability to pay.
And then summarize options for anyone who might find themselves in this position.
Also, look to create a new system for supporting people to maintain services to live in comfort even when financial challenges exist.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I may create a new You Tube channel, FUFOS Journalism.
I would love to attract some collaborators for this type of work.
The Journalists seem to have forgotten their role. [or veered off a long ago vision?]
I would love to explore that issue also.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I have compassion. It is an issue of the journey of evolution of human consciousness.
What is required is increased understanding.
Not blame, shame, ridicule or persecution great or small.
I sincerely and deeply believe this.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Forgot to mention some of why I am interested in understanding what is going on in ICU- Intensive Care Unit.
My family shared with me their perception, via MSM that it is non-vax People “overwhelming” ICU\u2019s.
There was even a mention of future triage that may require turning away non-vax people that may require medical attention. The frequency of this had a tinge of tyranny energy to my sensibilities.
Within 24 hours, I noticed an “alternative” media story – I think Toronto?
The Toronto video<\/a><\/strong> I came across. Click bold title to view.
A man who claimed to be a physician employed at the hospital working in ICU who stated it was vaxed people who were clogging up ICU.
Neither of these stories leaves me feeling that I understand what is truly going on.
Both types of media have not earned my full trust.
Truly, anyone with high integrity would desire an accurate understanding of what is going on.
Yet if only conclusions are shared, without transparent open access to the data, we take great risk.
I have personally been censored on social media so that leaves me wondering who is censoring and why?
Until I receive an explanation that makes sense and FEELS true, I am quite leary to join everyone in the conclusions.
AND do we wish to leave the media bearing the responsibility of keeping the public informed?
I imagine that was the purpose of media in some minds at some point.
Level of consciousness: absolutely essential to ensure people working in this role have reached the threshold where integrity is maintained.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Human nature as it commonly exists creates challenges to integrity at many turns.
This made me realize that each main camp in the v2$$in3 issue watch completely different media systems.
Somehow, I choose to keep a sideways eye on both.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

One hypothesis I have in mind: is there a conscious divide and conquer strategy?
If there was, and everyone only views their “own” media, nobody would eeeever realize.
I am a bit tongue in cheek here.
[history does hint at this. Over and over.]<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Non-biased reporting of issues. Is this possible?
I do not know.
I am aware of my own sense of things with my life\u2019s experience. Is that called bias? (Feel so?)
Hence:
Tribunal <\/strong>– formal, transparent discussions of collective multiple views on important topics that impact everyone. However, there cannot be exclusion of a perspective for highest function.
OR
Vigorous, respectful formal debates.
Again- we would need to hear all voices\/perspectives.
[2022- not feeling too keen on debates. Conflict has a negative feedback looping effect on everybody. To my observation.
Wish to start some positive feedback loops now.]
Where things have landed these days, it might make sense to make all proceedings publicly viewable.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201cAbsolute Candor\u201d.<\/strong>
It might take a while.
Yet, when everyone feels properly heard in a safe container (or stage), that can lead to optimal solutions that work for everyone. And the understanding that creates Unity. Agreement is not required.
It is likely that this process would drive new questions into the forefront. Address concerns of people.
The main way to know if it is successful is for the concerned people to state that it is.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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I wrote by hand a long list of questions to ask in order to more widely understand what is happening in ICU.
MSM soundbite: 95% full.
My initial line of questioning would ask for the number of total beds now, 1 year ago and 5 years ago.
For a start.
Fear-inducing facts without some context : I call that pr0p0g4nd4.
(See what I did there. I have learned how bots work\u2026 a bit).
Truly more powerful to share this 1 year later in 2022.
This little media frenzy was quite short-lived. Feels forever away now.
Interesting how that worked, dontcha think?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Got this idea from Picard Season 1, Episode 4, titled “Absolute Candor\u201d<\/strong>.
A subculture of the Romulons live with absolute candor.
I do hypothesize that human evolution is heading in that direction.
Naturally, psychic\/extrasensory perception comes online as an individual optimizes.
Secrets cannot be kept to one’s self at some point.
It is time to prepare for this.
When this is embodied by a higher percentage of us, the whole journalism discussion will become moot.
This quote is animated by this true nature of an optimized human being.
Truth-meter function. Coming soon [to a theater near you, haha].<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201cTrue disclosure results in a vibratory shift that will not generate debate, but a new state of being.\u201d<\/strong>
Laura Eisenhower<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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This requires Impeccability with word choice along with love & compassion in one\u2019s heart at its highest level. Develops alongside integrity, naturally.
It is already here yet not so front and center for everybody.
Subconsciously, we know more than we realize.
[Non violent communication: a system of trainings and written materials exist. My recommendation, get started at your earliest opportunity.]<\/p>\n\n\n\n

“Living in the heart rather than the head will finally turn the world upside down, which the heart will view as right side up.”<\/em><\/strong>
Suchi Kumar<\/p>\n\n\n\n

“A tulip doesn\u2019t strive to impress anyone. It doesn\u2019t struggle to be different than a rose. It doesn\u2019t have to. It is different. And there\u2019s room in the garden for every flower. You didn\u2019t have to struggle to make your face different than anyone else\u2019s on earth. It just is. You are unique because you were created that way. Look at little children in kindergarten. They\u2019re all different without trying to be. As long as they\u2019re unselfconsciousnessly being themselves, they can\u2019t help but shine. It\u2019s only later, when children are taught to compete, to strive to be better than others, that their natural light becomes distorted.”<\/em><\/strong>
Marianne Williamson<\/p>\n\n\n\n

“You have a unique message to deliver, a unique song to sing, a unique act of love to bestow. This message, this song, and this act of love have been entrusted exclusively to the one and only you.<\/em><\/strong>“
John Powell<\/p>\n\n\n\n


Posted on my Facebook page September 1, 2012 by a new friend I had met at a chocolate party.
“You have the most beautiful soul Angele! Thank you for sharing it and being your authentic self. It is breath taking and inspiring.”<\/em><\/strong>
Looks like I have needed much reminding.
I feel this is Universal. Let this article remind you<\/strong> that you are all<\/strong> the same yet unique in your expression of your<\/strong> beautiful Soul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Now I validate myself<\/strong>.
I am the way I am for good reason.
I AM.
I repeat this more than any other phrase recent months.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I, like all of us, simply wish to be my authentic self and connect with other authentic selves optimally.
Naturally, we all wish to meaningfully serve a soul-aligned role in the wider game.
I include here a link to a touching 2 minute piano instrumental cover of Barney\u2019s famous “I Love You” <\/a><\/strong>song. Click bold title to listen.
Wistful and nostalgic.
Truly, lip service is not enough.
More and more, I experience how limiting words can be.
They can tend to keep us stuck in our minds, disconnected from our hearts.
Connecting through the heart \u2026 makes all the difference.
I Love You <\/a><\/strong>… Beyond words and time.
Wisdom and Love are everywhere … when you are attuned to your natural essence you will see clearly.

In a nutshell:
I wish to be part of the solution.
The whole solution.
Nobody can do this alone.
Time to unite.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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A little Heyoka <\/a><\/strong>therapy here. I tease you along with myself. Click purple word for a Wikipedia explanation of the spirit of Heyoka, the sacred clown. Perhaps gives some insight<\/em><\/strong> on why I chose to playfully include some preschool Barney songs in this article.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

For deep consideration:
Quote Book 5: Ringing Cedars Book of Kin, by Vladimir M\u00e9gr\u00e9:
” \u2026 just a sincerely asked question, together with the parent\u2019s desire to hear their child\u2019s answer, is capable of uniting parents with their children \u2013 of making them happy \u2013 for ever.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

This joint quest for happiness is infinite. But even the beginning of the quest can be called a state of happiness.\u201d Anastasia (p. 132)<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

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