{"id":3088,"date":"2015-01-09T21:47:01","date_gmt":"2015-01-10T03:47:01","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/disabledangel.ca\/?p=3088"},"modified":"2015-04-17T11:30:11","modified_gmt":"2015-04-17T17:30:11","slug":"mr-brasil-episode-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/disabledangel.ca\/?p=3088","title":{"rendered":"Mr. Brasil: Episode 2"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"IMG_3197\"<\/a>January 4, 2015, a Saturday, I was completely surprised but tickled pink to receive a text from Mr. Brasil around 10pm. Just the text alone was more than I would have ever expected. We continued to playfully go back and forth via text. It was not long before a date was implied \u2026 to go skating. And then all of a sudden I am being invited right then … to the acreage. I was to redeem myself for my pirating of the movie Interstellar, the activity his text found me in.\u00a0 Past or no past, could not deny the excitement at seeing him again. Afterthought from him was to bring warm clothes and my skates. He had a pond just off his property that he had been clearing of snow to allow for skating. I looked up the weather forecast on my phone app: there was a cold weather warning out. -29 degrees Celcius, felt like -34 (mild windchill). Perfect! Ignore warnings. A hobby \"10897955_922556191101862_6804258745692017219_n\"<\/a>of mine. I excitedly collected my newest acquisitions from Camper’s Village. A red North Face uber-warm jacket that covers my derri\u00e8<\/span>re<\/span> and my very first pair of Sorel boots. Not sure how a Canadian manages to thrive for 48 years without ever owning a pair of the superior thermal boots but I did. This pair was sparkly silver. I felt the ensemble was pretty smart looking \u2026 for any Inuit opportunities that might come along. My longtime hat with earflaps from LL Bean completed the look. He described my hat as \u201clike an old lady\u201d. He did not stop there but continued to recount seeing a lady at the grocery store that same day wearing a hat like mine. Let the deflation begin… Luckily, my Forrest Gump traits kick in at times like these.\u00a0 The comment was quickly left behind.\u00a0 Back to enjoying his company, which I thoroughly did as always.
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We bundled up, he looking more the criminal now with his balaclava and ski goggles. I felt less \"1901235_917193034992017_7309283207525077298_n\"<\/a>equipped as my nose and cheeks were exposed. Checked off a Bucket List item that I had not been aware of. Ride on the back of an ATV, driven by a sexy beast, under a full moon at midnight in Beautiful rural Alberta at -30 degrees. Not a cloud to obscure the sky full of stars<\/a>.<\/b>(Coldplay) Breathtaking. The drive to the skating pond was a thrill \u2013 for me. Ho hum \u2013 for him. Kinda like our sex life \u2026 sadly. I think lame was a term that was cast about at one point.\u00a0 It is my middle name afterall.\u00a0 Claudette means lame or disabled.\u00a0 I have translated it to\u00a0differently-abled<\/em> for my writing, not sure the same translation works here. A great mystery to me.\u00a0 With scientific interest, I wanted to explore the mismatch.\u00a0 Defied logic to my perception.\u00a0 I have an active imagination and have hypotheses but my lips are sealed for now.\u00a0 What lurks beneath the surface?\u00a0 Something outside of ordinary experience?\u00a0 Just a hunch…<\/span><\/p>\n

Whoops, back to the story. Narrow path. At times evergreen branches would sweep across us. Steep descent. Gravity pressing me into his back. Hang on, sweet Angel!\u00a0 That would be me talking to myself.
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\"Huayna<\/a>

Huayna Picchu stairs at Machu Picchu in Peru<\/p><\/div>\n

\u00a0I treat myself like a queen. We walked around a little once at the site but headed back to camp <\/i>shortly thereafter. <\/i>He reminded me of myself when he stopped midway up the hill on the trail at a pile of chopped wood. His habit was not to waste a trip but to grab a load each time he goes by on the Quad, filling the front cargo. A hauling moment prevents a hauling day. The concept is an adaptation from a Norwex (ecofriendly cleaning product company… yes from Norway) sales rep’s sound advice \u201ca cleaning moment prevents a cleaning day\u201d. She taught me all the details and I used them in those two years that I cleaned my own house. It works! Back to the story.<\/span><\/p>\n

Speed was fast going up, one large log flew off. Carry on. Our habits define us. He is very industrious: a get ‘er done<\/i> kind of guy. Efficiency is \"IMG_3224\"<\/a>celebrated. Gotta love that! While other men are discussing why something may not be possible, he would be half way done the job. That was my perception anyway. I did not know him all that well and only since August 2014. Busy schedules have found us together seldomly. But I know a good man when I see one. Similar to my best girlfriends. Large gaps occur in our meetups but we always pick up right where we left off. My girlfriends, that is. It was only after writing these words that the concept of how uncommonly this loving approach is applied in the more romantically\/sexually charged friendships. A pity \u2026 Did you notice my gender neutral declaration? I celebrate diversity. I am so 2015! <\/span><\/p>\n

My moment recognizing that \u201che was not that into me\u201d had passed weeks before. After returning from my Brasil trip with strict orders not to raise my sexual energy, I was a bit standoffish with Mr. Brasil. He was aware of my unique detoxification instructions which included avoiding alcohol \"1471125_718574558154076_1878159865_n\"<\/a>and a few other things, most notable sex, even with myself. We had plans to connect a few days before detox. ended. Somehow neither of us texted or called to specify the plans. Weeks passed. I followed my feelings and texted a Merry Christmas with the wish to share New Year’s Eve together. A day later, he texted Merry Christmas, have a nice trip. Noticeably absent was mention of future plans of any sort. Nuff said. I chose to let it go. I used the old stopwatch technique learned from Pema Chodron: no emotion felt fully can last longer than 90 seconds. In my experience, she had always been right. I had pretty much accepted it by then anyway. Just had the inspiration to let him know the bridge was not burned. Make no assumptions. Do not take it personally. Very important, clarify to myself how I feel and choose how I want to act upon my feelings. I \"942580_457278334363817_2024466886_n\"<\/a>was certain that he was the most eligible bachelor in the Edmonton region that I was aware of. I enjoyed spending time with him. I chose to send out the flare (the text). I respect his freedom to choose his response too. It takes two to Tango. Before Christmas, no sign of his desire to Tango. <\/span><\/p>\n

January 4, 2015 curiosity was explored. I enjoyed the moments. The moment is king… always. Whether more moments come, time will tell. My sense is he does not really have very much extra time in his life. In this great big world, this smorgasbord of Beautiful people, there is no need for us to always go it alone. Love to celebrate coming together as often or seldom as is authentic… for both people in any friendship. That is how it works. In my world anyway. I feel I have upgraded my beliefs around relationship.<\/span><\/p>\n

In the story, You Are The Lover and The Loved<\/i>, I spoke of how I let my lover go once I recognized my strong attraction to Mr. Brasil. He did not ask me to. I now feel I should not have. Sure enough Mr. Kik returned to his former position after a six month hiatus. I connected with him for the first time this same week December 30, 2014. The married man. <\/span><\/p>\n

A second married man, I call him my High School Sweetheart, entered the scene. I did not even know him in High School but met him at our 30 year Reunion. Slightly ironic. We hit it off and started a friendship \u2026 with a wee romantic flavor. I had been more honest with him than any other man ever. Felt so good. Seemed to draw him to me like a magnet. \"602080_610313512328789_904585514_n\"<\/a>I immediately started a story called, \u201cSleeping With A Friend\u201d. I continually reminded him that we will be lifelong friends. I have even informed him who he will be romantically connected to in the future. What do I know? T<\/b><\/i>he moment is king, <\/b><\/i>an oft repeated phrase. I did not see us as lovers, but some kissy\/cuddly moments kept popping up. Surprising me at first but with repetition, less and less. He treated me so well from the moment we met. I enjoyed his company. He is a perpetually optimistic man with the same bounce in his step that he had in High School. Yes, I had noticed him back then. I nicknamed him top jock from those memories. His tagline: the only one in High School to go from jock to banger to prep in three years. Few men are able to maintain their young man vigor. Our conversations nourished my storytelling. I treasure him.<\/span><\/p>\n

\"1013612_926873197336828_6119386977029198629_n\"<\/a>Warily I disclose a little conversation I had with myself months ago, before Mr. Brasil. I trust it is apparent from my writing style that I am taking an anthropological, scientific approach to relationships. My experiences and life story serve as the laboratory. I played with and continue to play with concepts in my mind. I questioned the social rules. Have they served our highest good? I perceived that I had connected to a Spirit Guide that has been present since birth but fully into my awareness October 2014. Every now and again I will catch myself asking a question. Intended to be rhetorical. And I get an answer. I used to wonder where the answers came from. I thought it was my higher self that I read about in Spiritual Circles. My perception evolved to that it was from a Spirit Guide.<\/span><\/p>\n

One fine day in mid 2014, with great exasperation I asked myself, \u201cHow many boyfriends do I need?\u201d \"IMG_3196\"<\/a>Rhetorical question just appeared in my thoughts. Forget the details but you know those moments where you wonder why your needs are not being met? Probably this occurred before my website because I was noting that all the boys were so busy working that they had no time for me. Once I started publishing on the website, I had no time for them. What answer do you think I heard? Instant and clear, the answer was \u201cfour\u201d. WTF??\u00a0 I have a saying:\u00a0 Ask the right question to get the right answer.\u00a0 I was not ready to hear that answer.\u00a0 Still not calling it truth but it was an answer.\u00a0 Beware resisting what could be truth.\u00a0 It was outside my imagination how that could ever be in this world.\u00a0 I am aligning with the idea that Understanding is Optional<\/em><\/strong> … more often than I would have thought.\u00a0 But how can you go where you have never been without doing or thinking what you have never done or thought.\u00a0 Be Nimble in Mind and Body.<\/em><\/strong>
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It definitely caught my attention. Eyes bugged out (my guess). Turned my head to look over my shoulder. I knew there was nobody there but it seemed prudent to check. I toyed with the concept for a millisecond or two and rejected it. I nearly completely forgot it until it popped into my mind while writing this piece. \"IMG_3163\"<\/a>I sat down to write a channel, a daily habit of connecting to my Spirit Guide while typing (I type questions and the answers come through my fingers. Witnessed the same type of channeling in Brasil numerous times, but they always wrote by hand) and was shocked at this story coming down as you are reading it.<\/span><\/p>\n

Mysterious fun is what I call it. Some would call it crazy. Just offering an alternative perspective for your consideration. Repressed mediumship is considered a cause of psychosis in some Integretive Psychiatry circles. Thrilled that I have connected to other Professionals who support my direct experience.<\/span><\/p>\n

Tangentially, I will add in that the movie Interstellar had me quite excited near the end. I was watching it with my 17 year old daughter, the brains behind the piracy operation (I was more the accomplice). \"1231294_513284525420255_270353794_n\"<\/a>The rendition of the main character connecting to his daughter in the past via the 5th<\/sup> dimension raised goosebumps. Reminiscent of my first manic experience. It was really hard to explain and yet, here was a moviemaker showing it on film. I was distracted by Mr. Brasil at this crucial point in the film. Need to see it again. We had a slightly inferior quality production by chance. I sensed my daughter’s challenge in hearing me speak of my experiences. I do not take it personally. She received the cultural templates that generate her skepticism \u2026 from me. My concept sounds far fetched, I get it. I was speaking very softly and telling her the few points in the movie that I resonated with so much. The young daughter in the movie feeling like she was communicating with a ghost initially. Nobody believed her but she was so sure. The ghost ended up being her Dad in the future. Time being relative was portrayed in an approachable way. Pure physics people. Stories are superior at portraying challenging concepts than a teacher in the classroom. Get it? By design.<\/strong>
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\"10580170_10152456588541296_2183472717941633647_n\"<\/a>Interstellar: Another fictional (Truth is Stranger than Fiction) depiction of you don’t know what you don’t know<\/b><\/i>. Our current system is so set on one person declaring that another person does not know what they claim to know. Are we confused yet?<\/span><\/p>\n

Just sayin’…<\/span><\/p>\n

My roundabout way to point out: I want to unlearn all that I have learned. And start again.
\nThe Relationship System is up for remodeling. The current state of affairs (pardon the pun) has not won my faith.<\/span><\/p>\n

I do not discriminate on the basis of marriage… anymore.<\/strong><\/p>\n

\"IMG_3226\"<\/a>The moment is king. There are no rules outside of authenticity, love and respect – Myself first. My feelings are my guide, my arrow. I follow my arrow. Expectations about outcome are a no no. More concerned about what I have found than what I am looking for. We attract what we are. Men are like snowflakes, no two are alike. If it is not fun, I am not in. If the other is not game, it has nothing to do with me. Likely when they are game, it may have little to do with me also. I am the Lover and the Loved. It is all about me. I am all I need. But sharing is fun and feels good. I am love. Love is infinite. Selfishness is the new black. Love the cheekiness of that statement. Keep in mind that one man’s selfish is another’s self-loving.<\/span><\/p>\n

My current working model In a Nutshell.<\/b><\/i> No joke.<\/span><\/p>\n

\"10624920_589799464482771_1512812147475555051_n\"<\/a>A woman with six Facebook Pages and a website to express herself might be in a unique position to authentically nurture a number of relationships. Retired and vital<\/b>. You don’t see that everyday…<\/span><\/p>\n

Live and Let Live is the bridge to World Peace.<\/b><\/span><\/p>\n

Wanted to point out: my little answer of four men required to match my preferences (I have no attachment to this, but interesting…) is in the current<\/strong> Relationship System. It will be re-written as needed. When you combine the Married man wondering about what to do with his commitment and the single man wanting to avoid commitment at all costs, the impressionist painting is Beautiful. I see the Beauty and Art in everything. The Moment is King. It is hard to be my King when you are not in my Moment. The Moment holds many clues. I have a reputation for being clueless. Freedom to change is always within reach. Yay for me!<\/span><\/p>\n

\"IMG_3222\"<\/a>I offer that my meandering stories, including this one, try to paint a picture of what living in the now<\/b> means. In my seeker days, I would roll the concept around in my mind but did not really know how to live it. I still do not. My perception is I am moving towards it. Not without jumping out of the box and crossing a lot of boundaries though. Now<\/b> can feel so unobtainable even though it is always right here. I sound like some kind of Spiritual Teacher. Hardy har har. I shook my head slowly back and forth after writing that. Paradox. <\/span><\/p>\n

To keep it 3D, I should add: do not worry about my piracy accomplice crime. I was thoroughly and effectively punished \u2026 by Mr. Brasil. I was surprised how much I liked it. The only thing missing was the Police Uniform. Sometimes captivity can be fun.\u00a0\u00a0 I will try most things once.\u00a0 It is not uncommon for one to be having more fun than the other.\u00a0 Many times, I have been accused of having too much fun.<\/strong><\/em>\u00a0 It is not a crime.\u00a0 Is it?
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\"IMG_3219\"<\/a>Addendum:<\/span><\/p>\n

Language. Our friend. A finite number of words. In an infinite Universe. Words have context, historical framework. New concepts require new vocabulary. Concepts exist with or without vocabulary. Humans have capability of communicating outside of words and language. I predict we are heading in the direction of using those alternate forms of communication more in coming years. Time will tell. Is time a belief system? What is time? Just because words do not exist to describe something does not mean it is nonexistent. More contents for the <\/i>Nutshell.<\/b><\/i><\/span><\/p>\n

Par example (for example in French):<\/span><\/p>\n

\"Dirty<\/a>

Dirty Car Art by Scott Wade<\/p><\/div>\n

The story of Mr. Brasil was playfully shared. I love my story even though I rarely understand it. Understanding is optional, as is suffering.<\/strong> Many details missing in my stories in general. Believe it or not, I am far from telling all. Going back to the start with Mr. Brasil: playing together in cars. Interesting how in the confined space of a vehicle, lips met. Bodies were embraced. Two playful adults. So. Amazing. Each time, I had the same \"10409385_1537760099796895_1999770625271799639_n\"<\/a>experience, new to me, that I called melting<\/b>. Thoroughly enjoyed the moments. Very passionate. Could not get enough. Until my entire body melted<\/b>. Bliss. Like a surge of warm, fuzzy energy spread across my chest and then throughout my body. As if I was instantly heavier, more dense. I was unable to continue to kiss etc. So serene. Heaven. My physical matter melted onto the seat, in some symbolic way. Reflections about what this was led me to state to myself, \u201cIf I never had another orgasm, and had meltings instead, I would be just fine.\u201d A strange choice of words indeed. Months later, I heard Teal Swan talking about \"10464381_670425499709109_7747608363145942127_n\"<\/a>Orgasms<\/strong><\/a>, two kinds: Intrinsic and Extrinsic. Eureka! The word I was looking for was intrinsic orgasm.\u00a0\u00a0<\/b><\/i><\/b>True Story:\u00a0 experienced these amazing orgasms and did not even realize they were orgasms.\u00a0 Pretty funny.\u00a0 Or clueless.\u00a0 Just because I did not understand or have a word for the experience, did not deny the experience. Listen to me now. Believe me later.<\/span><\/p>\n

Experience is a model teacher. <\/b>In a Nutshell.\u00a0 <\/i>Vocabulary can lag.\u00a0 Clueless upgrades to unaware<\/strong><\/em>.\u00a0 When I have the intention to become aware, it happens … in a heartbeat.\u00a0 Yet not for the fainthearted is what I have been told.
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\"10911360_10153022397223707_2381918382876602041_o-1\"<\/a>Metaphysical exploration. Go where no man or woman has gone before. Perhaps a few have gone before. I consider myself a P<\/b><\/i>ioneer,<\/b><\/i> albeit a reluctant one. Like the Astronaut who went into the black hole in the movie Interstellar. I have no idea where I am going or what I will find. I would not be surprised if the experiences lack vocabulary. Hard to have a word for something rarely experienced. I plan to keep that in mind.<\/span><\/p>\n

22 Signs You Are Embodying Your Higher Self<\/strong><\/a>\u00a0 by Gustavo Castener, Founder of Ascended Relationships.\u00a0 Especially love #22.\u00a0 Don’t Take Yourself Too Seriously.\u00a0 Do not worry there.\u00a0 I do not.<\/p>\n

Immediately after reading Gustavo’s article, a handwritten channel came down.\u00a0 Apparently Peter, my Spirit Guide, wanted to tweak one area.\u00a0 It was #10.\u00a0 Activating Your DNA that prompted the following:<\/p>\n

\"1454700_815151175197123_5151160200590397139_n\"<\/a>DNA Activation may be better termed transmutation.\u00a0 Its Physics definition is the relevant one:\u00a0 any process in which a nuclide is transformed into a different nuclide.\u00a0 Another of the definitions was the Alchemical one.\u00a0 He does not feel Alchemy is a useful concept moving forward.\u00a0 I had always been attracted to the term alchemy.\u00a0 The Physics of Consciousness Professor, me, was unfamiliar with the word nuclide.\u00a0 Peter gave a thumbs up to both of the definitions given on dictionary.com.<\/p>\n

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1. an atomic species in which the atoms all have the same atomic number and mass number.<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Reading this definition gave me little understanding about what was meant.\u00a0 Peter clarified that one nuclide would \"522634_378303168858368_2113529824_n\"<\/a>increase energetic vibration, <\/strong><\/em>thus be changed.\u00a0 I perceived it as truth.\u00a0 We are all free to choose the reality we experience.\u00a0 Do you want to evolve?\u00a0 It is a Yes or No question.\u00a0 You are free to choose.<\/div>\n

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Love and respect the work of Gustavo Castener.\u00a0 Somehow was compelled to translate this one detail from his concise, expansive document … written for those who answered Yes to do you want to evolve.\u00a0 For those who answered no, please ignore.\u00a0 It will make no sense to you.\u00a0 You are free to dismiss it.<\/div>\n
To my perception, it is an approachable description of what some people are now experiencing.\u00a0 For a subset of us, we experience a Spiritual Emergency as the synchronicities come into our awareness.<\/div>\n

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My translation:\u00a0 we freak out when our actual experience seems impossible based on our understanding of reality.<\/div>\n
Medical Science Perspective:\u00a0 Psychotic Episode.<\/div>\n

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Not being aware of this transmutation process, an energetic phenomenon best pigeon-holed into Quantum Physics, the patient gets lost in translation.\u00a0 The patient and the Doctor are living by different rulebooks.\u00a0 Quantum Physics itself has long known about paradox.\u00a0 One set of rules for large objects and then the Quantum rules for tiny, tiny objects.\u00a0 Observer effect etc.\u00a0 Things may not be what they seem.\u00a0 It really shocked me when I learned that these quantum physics concepts that challenge the status quo in Science have been known since the 1940’s.\u00a0 Funny (for lack of a better word) they never came up in my education which included \"IMG_3198\"<\/a>University level Physics.\u00a0 I toyed briefly with the idea of going into Physics in University. I loved Physics in High School.\u00a0 My University Physics Professor knew my face and name based on his seeking me out. I entered the final exam with a 100% average – blown when I got one wrong answer.\u00a0 No big.\u00a0 Decided that I could not imagine a job outside of Physics Professor.\u00a0 Was tentative about the male domination also.\u00a0 Women were a severe minority in the Department.\u00a0 As strong as my interest in Physics was, it was only Newtonian Physics that appeared available.\u00a0 Pity.<\/div>\n

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The Ascended Relationship article just dropped into my lap<\/em> the day prior to publishing what I thought was the finished story …along with large volumes of other things I needed that day.\u00a0 I was overflowing with Gratitude.\u00a0 That day (aka yesterday), I was not freaking out.\u00a0 Still taking 600mg of Lithium though.\u00a0 For lack of a better word, I understand.\u00a0 Matt Kahn so wisely advised at the retreat I attended September 2014 to act casually.<\/strong><\/em>\u00a0 I upgrade my teacher’s words to: \u00a0Act Naturally.\u00a0 <\/strong>Of course, you may not know what naturally means with the new rulebook.<\/p>\n

\"Jimmy<\/a>

Jimmy Neutron<\/p><\/div>\n

Abundantly (you have what you need to have when you need to have it):\u00a0 Experience is the model teacher.\u00a0 Follow your arrow\/compass\/excitement.<\/strong><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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This is not Rocket Science.\u00a0 Oh wait a minute, maybe it is.\u00a0 <\/strong><\/em>Jimmy Neutron (cartoon movie that I highly recommend).<\/div>\n

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\"map10\"<\/a>Using some of Matt Kahn’s suggestions, I calmly noted, “wow you don’t see this amount of synchronistic flow everyday”.\u00a0 Interesting …\u00a0 One large difference between just prior to my first Manic Episode with Psychotic features and this new trend was that I was more able to act Naturally this time.\u00a0 Very casual.\u00a0 Physically, I have adapted a lot.\u00a0 Energetic vibration on day of admission, October 2012:\u00a0 over 500.\u00a0 Einstein was 499.\u00a0 To get over 500 (Love or Above), you have to lose your mind.\u00a0 Translation:\u00a0 Your mind becomes a tool rather than the CEO of your life.\u00a0 Heart-based living.\u00a0 True Story.\u00a0 I continue to vibrate over 500.\u00a0 Experience needs to unlearn all that we have learned<\/strong> (Yoda) because there is a new rulebook when you vibrate above 500.\u00a0 It would be fun to call it the Rocket Science Rulebook<\/em>!<\/div>\n

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Did I mention that my mom phoned that same morning?\u00a0 Just to touch base.\u00a0 I felt very connected.<\/div>\n

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I had the urge to publish three stories in one day.\u00a0 Two was all that reality allowed.\u00a0 No big.\u00a0 Self-doubt swirled around like a dust devil.\u00a0 I created a new mantra:\u00a0 Self-doubt, be gone!<\/strong>\u00a0 I repeated it frequently for about 30 minutes.\u00a0 Then I got back to work.<\/div>\n

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Thought I would mention that Mr. Brasil Episode 2 flowed very smoothly from my fingers. Peter is claiming nearly 100% on this one. First time ever. In the past it has been both of us. He stated that this<\/span><\/p>\n

\"Bentinho<\/a>

Bentinho Massaro’s School<\/p><\/div>\n

is the new normal. I am now a clearer conduit for him to channel stories from our shared perspective. For efficiency sake. It is a fact that I am distractable. Not that there is anything wrong with that. It was easier to keep track when the two events written about coincidentally occurred on the same day. I was watching Interstellar, Mr. Brasil texted immediately followed by a visit. Made me think of Bentinho Massaro describing it as Following the Breadcrumb Trail<\/i> until you find yourself in the Flow.<\/i> When you are in the Flow, you just Know<\/b><\/i>. An Excellent Prognostic Indicator<\/b><\/i> \u2013 my old Doctor Speak. Tee hee.<\/span><\/p>\n

Love this Quote:\"10347772_10152517555954150_1874949991758299173_n\"<\/a>
\nHope means intentionally using the idea of a future to keep you from experiencing the present. It\u2019s a crutch, but when you feel lame, use it.<\/b><\/i> Byron Katie<\/span><\/p>\n

One of my final read throughs, I asked myself if this was my Disability, the Lame in Disabled Angel.\u00a0 Not living in the Now.\u00a0 I got a No.\u00a0 It is the connection to an unnatural,<\/em><\/strong> sick by the old rulebook, Collective Consciousness.\u00a0 The majority of people do not know who they really are, as creator beings … and it is infectious.\u00a0 Not in the Sciency way but the Rocket Sciency way.\u00a0 I am dumbing it down here.\u00a0 Capiche?\u00a0 Not.\u00a0 An inside joke for my Bro’.\u00a0 I always write with the intention that it will be read by the right person, at the right time for my highest good and the highest good of all.\u00a0 Likely, I repeat myself there as\u00a0my<\/strong> highest good and the highest good of all\u00a0are\u00a0synonymous<\/strong><\/em> in the off chance that they are not.\u00a0 Very curious when his reading it will serve the\u00a0highest good.<\/em> Would love for him to understand<\/em> why I laughed so hard when he brought me to Emergency October 2012.\u00a0 I called myself the Angel \"AHCIP-health-card\"<\/a>Comedian.\u00a0 When we first presented, the lady behind the desk asked for the patient’s Healthcare Card.\u00a0 I laughed like a fool, telling my Bro’ to hand his over.\u00a0 He was the one worried and concerned.\u00a0 An unnatural state for an Actualized Human Being.\u00a0 Being honest to a fault, I knew he was more sick than I.\u00a0 Everything was suddenly backwards to all of my prior beliefs.\u00a0 Recognizing it all at once … was hilarious to me.\u00a0 The biggest \"IMG_3265\"<\/a>Scooby Doo ending I had ever been aware of!\u00a0 I was too honest for everyone.\u00a0 They could not handle the truth.\u00a0 Coming from the fool.\u00a0 This is not new.\u00a0 Remember Shakespeare?\u00a0 I did not embrace being the bearer of truth in that moment.\u00a0 It brought out a lot of fear.\u00a0 Ancestral fear of being burned at the stake.\u00a0 3D fear of being committed, involuntary admission to a Psychiatric ward.\u00a0 With my Medical experience, I knew what was going to happen next.\u00a0 I am grateful that they no longer use straight jackets but was disappointed that the rubber room was no longer in use.\u00a0 That would have been Fun.\u00a0 Leave it to the Psychiatric System to take out the Fun Part.\u00a0 This loop has been running a while.\u00a0 Comedians (my upgrade for fool) have a lot to offer in the New World.<\/p>\n

Insanity is doing the same thing over and over, and expecting a different result.\u00a0<\/strong><\/em> Albert Einstein<\/p>\n