{"id":1473,"date":"2014-06-24T12:36:01","date_gmt":"2014-06-24T18:36:01","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/disabledangel.ca\/?p=1473"},"modified":"2017-02-25T22:36:21","modified_gmt":"2017-02-26T04:36:21","slug":"backwards-day","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/disabledangel.ca\/?p=1473","title":{"rendered":"Backwards Day"},"content":{"rendered":"

Getting what you want and not getting what you want are two different ways that life helps you let go of attachments to endless wanting. Once you are no longer attached or identified with getting what you want, you are able to be who you were born to become. Matt Kahn<\/b><\/i><\/span><\/p>\n

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Backwards day, to me, has always meant eat dessert before supper:<\/em> one of my mum \"1017311_490274571050621_536867499_n\"<\/a>pearls<\/strong>. There is nothing better than announcing that today is backwards day<\/strong>, what do you want for dessert? Best used sparingly. It turns a blah day upside down. <\/span><\/p>\n

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I was thinking about this in reference to an amazing experience I had a couple of days prior to this writing. I saw my reaction to the turn of events as a signpost of a significant shift within me. A shift that left me feeling fantastic, free and alive. I was open to the magic in all moments. It was my intention to not judge anything, not even the moment. I did not resist what was. I went with the flow and I expected good things to happen. But how does one define good? One is best not to worry about it. Things just are…<\/span><\/p>\n

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\u201cSince everything is but an illusion,
\nPerfect in being what it is,
\nHaving nothing to do with good or bad,
\nAcceptance or rejection,
\nOne might as well burst out laughing!\u201d<\/b><\/i><\/p>\n

~Buddha<\/p>\n

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In Byron Katie’s words:\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

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Life is simple. Everything happens for you, not to you. Everything happens at exactly the right moment, neither too soon nor too late. You don’t have to like it… it’s just easier if you do.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

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The first March weekend 2014, I somehow chose not to make any plans and none came along. There were moments when I felt truly lonely. I spend a lot of time alone and almost never feel lonely so I took \"photo-14\"<\/a>notice. I guess in the back of my mind, I was hoping some plans with a specific man might turn up. To call him my boyfriend would be premature. We had been on three dates. Two of those dates were backwards day dates.<\/em> Dessert first …also known as intimate playdate<\/em>. I like to try most things once or twice. So somehow this trend started. It was definitely time to look into if this was what I really wanted. It was what I thought I wanted. My profile on Plenty of Fish read \u201cwants to date but nothing serious\u201d…which I think was a euphemism for prefers backwards day<\/em> dates. That was my intention when I chose it so no surprise that reality had provided this. With this particular friend it would start with an innocent little text in the morning \u201cbonjour\u201d, continue with some suggestive texts\/sexts and ending with the intimate playdate. Anticipation is fun! <\/span><\/p>\n

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I knew this was the first time both of us were without kids on the same weekend. <\/span><\/p>\n

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Expectation is the root of all heartache…Shakespeare<\/b><\/i><\/span><\/p>\n

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I ended up going to see a couple of hockey games that my sons played in. My youngest played a game at the local arena. I turned up a little late, 10 minutes into the game. Who did I see but my friend! My heart lifted. There was a glass behind the stands so I could see him sitting there before I entered \"photo-13\"<\/a>myself. Well, no doubt, I chose to sit with him. It turned out his son’s team was the opposition for my son’s team. I chose to fraternize with the enemy using those very words as the seat next to him was cleared. My intuition sensed something had changed. Now I see a sexy lass with a large Tim Horton’s coffee cup matching the one in his hand. Oh, this is interesting… Right away, I perceive what I have walked into.\u00a0 He has a girlfriend! I am instantly overjoyed for this intimate, upfront way of learning the truth of my situation. I was quite tickled at the strong gratitude I felt. This was a cool way to be brought up to speed \u2013 up close and personal. So I just sat there as a fellow parent spectator. I conversed with another man on my right who had refractive surgery from my parenting partner so that was a pleasant conversation. It likely was crazy uncomfortable for my friend with his girl on his left and his ‘friend with benefits”, me, on his right. He or his girlfriend did not appear to be having as much fun as I was, that was my assessment.\u00a0 I add in later:\u00a0 you cannot always trust your perception.\u00a0 I learned over time that he was not at all uncomfortable with the two ladies at his side.\u00a0 Maybe those two were having a lot more fun than met my eye.
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\"Man<\/a>

Best advice I have seen to date…<\/p><\/div>\n

When the game ended, he just turned to me and said, \u201csee you later\u201d. Wow! I knew what was going on. But it was still nice when I saw the opportunity to talk to him \u2013 his girl went to the bathroom after the game. I just asked point blank. Is that your girlfriend? He said Yes. I told him with a jovial tone and a playful shove, \u201cyou should have told me\u201d. He remarked, \u201cyes, but I didn’t know how\u201d. Fair enough… I had asked him if I should go back to the pond, Plenty of Fish, to which he replied, \u201cyes\u201d. I asked him could I hug him? He said no. \u201cOK. Take care.\u201d I respect him. I know he was surrounded by all the parents of his son’s team. I must respect his choice. I walked away with bouncy steps and head held high. Loved how comfortable I was in my own skin in that moment… <\/span><\/p>\n

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That was when it hit me. Wow! That was cool. I had wanted<\/b> to clarify the situation. I had intended to \"1229960_507206246033680_1372748189_n\"<\/a>send a text that night or next day asking if I would see him again. Sensing something had changed. I felt so supported by the Universe. This happened\u00a0for<\/strong> me and not\u00a0to<\/strong> me. I preferred the face to face interaction by far. We were here to relate first and foremost, right? He was privileged to experience the \u201cAng\u00e8<\/span>le-style\u201d moment.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

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Within a half hour, he sent a very authentic, heartfelt text. He was truly sorry and felt bad. He went on to explain that this was a past girlfriend that he had run into the prior weekend. I told him not to be sorry. Authenticity rules… I appreciated the effort with the text as it was not really required but very appreciated. He exceeded my expectation. Loved that all the loose ends could be tucked away. That is \"Slap<\/a>all any of us truly want or need. So much drama when people do not just accept the reality of the situation. <\/span><\/p>\n

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If Life gives you lemons, make lemon meringue pie!!<\/b><\/i><\/span><\/p>\n

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The Truth is bitter in the beginning but sweet in the end.<\/b><\/i><\/span><\/p>\n

A Lie is sweet in the beginning but bitter in the end.<\/b><\/i><\/span><\/p>\n

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I love quotes! They are more succinct than a story.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Big lesson I learned through dating him was that I was not being honest with myself in \u201cdating but nothing serious\u201d. I enjoyed the intimacy and reminded myself how a relationship is automatically occurring when two \"photo<\/a>people are intimate. I watched the movie \u201cFriends with Benefits\u201d during the weeks we were interacting and saw myself in those characters.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Friends With Benefits \u201cClosing Time\u201d<\/strong><\/a> flash mob ending scene
\n\u201cI’m messed up!\u201d Justin Timberlake’s character <\/i>(I can relate…)<\/i><\/span><\/p>\n

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He:\u00a0 I miss you.<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

She:\u00a0 I miss you too.\u00a0 But you’re not wrong.\u00a0 I\u00a0am\u00a0<\/strong>damaged.\u00a0 <\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

He:\u00a0 So am I.\u00a0 Who isn’t?\u00a0 That’s what makes us so awesome. …And our tattoos.<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

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Do I have intimacy issues? Probably. I chose to immediately change my profile to \u201clooking for a relationship\u201d. I remember not too long ago being turned off whenever I saw that on a man’s profile. I have evolved apparently. I make a few other tweaks \u2013 removing a few oddball sentences along with my You Tube link for Wake Me Up by Avicii<\/strong><\/a>. I was just going to leave it at that when a face turned up. I had seen it before.\u00a0 I had even messaged him but I forgot. I decided, \u201cHey, I will message this guy\u201d. I would love to meet him. Instant response. He was online, rare I later found out. We chatted back and forth. We made plans to meet for a drink that same night. Nice! I was talking to my last friend at 6PM. I am meeting this new friend at 7:30PM!! I think I changed my \u201clooking for a relationship\u201d status at 6:30PM. Felt very synchronistic the way it played out…<\/span><\/p>\n

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My new friend described the date as \u201cThe Best First Date Ever\u201d as we were midway through. <\/span><\/p>\n

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Best Day Ever Spongebob Squarepants<\/span><\/strong><\/a><\/p>\n

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We hit it off fantastically!! If I had not bumped into my Backwards Day friend, I would not be on this amazing date on this very same<\/b> Sunday. It felt so magical. As one door closes, another opens. I felt \"Flower<\/a>like Forrest Gump \u2013 looking at the world with those lovely rose colored glasses. We were both equally enthusiastic.\u00a0 Nice. He was a renovator\/builder as was my Dad. I heard myself ask, would I be dating my dad?\u00a0 Kinda like how I married my mom.\u00a0 Hmmm…\u00a0 A slight caution with that thought. He played the guitar and other instruments. One question that he asked had me quite excited, \u201cHave you ever bought an instrument inspired by a specific song?\u201d Yes, I have as a matter of fact!! I had bought a guitar for a Jason Mraz song. He had bought a piano for a song from the movie Amelie! He learned to play it despite not reading music, just by ear.
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La Valse D’Amelie (piano)<\/span><\/strong><\/a><\/p>\n

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Life Is Wonderful (Live) \u2013 Jason Mraz <\/span><\/strong><\/a><\/p>\n

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He had beautiful blue eyes, short beard and curly hair. Yum. An amazing kisser but we left it there. I was amazed at the shift in me. The sexual polarity was strong but we both resisted temptation for now. Loved that he texted, as I drove home, that it took all his willpower to do so. I cannot imagine \"10155234_10152333041150490_3012025017576086356_n\"<\/a>too many dates will go by before intimacy is explored some more. <\/span><\/p>\n

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I also learned that there is nothing wrong with talking about these things. I will be sure to discuss the topic: is there such a thing as sex too early? I felt like a different woman. It was all rather easy…yet hard. No pun intended \u2013 haha. Always that paradox.<\/span><\/p>\n

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P.S. – Second date was dinner. Without prompting, he brought up the issue of taking it slow<\/em> in the sex department. He wanted to ensure that I knew it was not that the desire was missing but that he valued the anticipation building while we got to know each other. We were dancing to a very different tune this time. Wow! I appreciated trying something different, for sure. It seemed that my \u201cCosmic Horn Dog\u201d or \u201cinflamed sacral Chakra\u201d had settled. What a relief…<\/span><\/p>\n

Maybe I speak too soon.
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Written March 4, 2014 <\/span><\/p>\n

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April 11, 2014\"Plot<\/a><\/span><\/p>\n

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I guess an update would show the true Forrest Gump that I am.<\/span><\/p>\n

Taking it slow<\/i> date ended up not returning my texts after the second<\/span> date. What?? Another of life’s mysteries. I only sent two texts before I got the message<\/i>. ‘Nuff said… The bridge is intact with that one. I remain curious as to what happened there but curiosity never killed anyone. Or has it? Still open to hear from him in the future if he is ever so inspired.<\/span><\/p>\n

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My Backwards Day friend texted \u201cHey stranger\u201d one day a couple of weeks ago. Fun going back and forth. I mention that I have a moratorium on sex for now. He states, \u201cAw, I loved having sex with you\u201d. I tease with, \u201cMaybe you can apply for the<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

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Texted this to him one day…<\/p><\/div>\n

\u00a0grandfather clause\u201d. I am such a flirt. I do not know what to do with myself sometimes. When he asked what I was doing that night, I was a little disappointed to say that I was busy. Unsure whether would hear from him again. Not overly concerned as the ball and chain, <\/i>as I affectionately call his girlfriend, <\/i>was still in his life. Do I want to be the mistress<\/i>?<\/span><\/p>\n

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Yesterday \u201cHey stranger\u201d followed an hour later, did not respond right away, with \u201cHow have you been?\u201d Certainly, seeing these texts put a smile on my face. A fun flurry of texts and a short visit on the phone followed. Return of the backwards day<\/em> date! Truly a pleasure. I guess I want to learn that lesson again. (Insert happy face here)<\/span><\/p>\n

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I followed my joy. With no expectation as to outcome. Love the authenticity in our communication that had resulted with our little experiences together. <\/span><\/p>\n

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Truth is stranger than fiction I always say…<\/span><\/p>\n

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Flip Side of Dating<\/span><\/strong><\/a><\/p>\n

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June 22, 2014<\/span><\/p>\n

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Truth is definitely Stranger than Fiction. Connected with Backwards Day friend yet again weeks ago. Girl was still present in his life.\u00a0 He was on a business trip.\u00a0 Big fancy suite.\u00a0 Invited me to join him and share it in Calgary.\u00a0 Anyone who knows me knows that<\/span>
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He took pic of my truck approaching hotel. Love the enthusiasm!<\/p><\/div>\n

I love driving…\u00a0 I had on my wish list to have a romantic overnight with a man.\u00a0 Checked that one off now.\u00a0 Not sure I will ever get out of Relationship Kindergarten – see Plenty of Fish story. I say that lightly, as I just followed my excitement.\u00a0 I do not consider it a mistake.\u00a0 It was authentic for me.
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Talked to him this week, bantering along. Seems I am on the call monthly<\/b> list. It came out that he has sex nearly every day! Somehow, that pissed me off. Jealous<\/strong><\/a> on more than one level. I was feeling pretty good about my once a week situation.\u00a0 He was happy to hear there was someone new in my life.\u00a0 Happens there was no crossover. A week apart.\u00a0 Next question from me, \u201cThen why on earth continue to connect with me?\u201d His answer, \u201cI don’t like to burn bridges\u201d. Hmmmm…… Unsatisfactory to my ear. This prompted a big \u201cI am not worthy\u201d<\/b> process for me.\u00a0 I am always second fiddle<\/em>. Thank you dear! I needed to deal with that anyway…<\/span><\/p>\n

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I made the assumption that he and his girl had trouble in paradise prompting him to call on me. I should take my own advice. Do not make assumptions<\/b>. Wow. Somehow the situation just felt a \"10259716_10152519468362228_9168673275187631939_n\"<\/a>whole lot different with that little tidbit of information.\u00a0 I felt like the condiment on somebody’s buffet.<\/em> I gave myself a big hug<\/strong>.\u00a0 Live by the sword, die by the sword.\u00a0 I always say. On the other hand, I was quite inspired by him.\u00a0 What an abundant mindset!\u00a0 Who says a man can only enjoy one woman at a time?\u00a0 What is good for the goose is good for the gander. \u00a0No?\u00a0 I find myself reluctant to have more than \u00a0one lover at a time.\u00a0 I ask myself why?\u00a0 Is it a belief system?\u00a0 Is it authentic for me to enjoy two, or maybe even more, lovers?\u00a0 Possibly.\u00a0 Not sure.\u00a0 Seems that with the right one<\/strong>, a second would not be authentic.\u00a0 Maybe I watch too many Disney movies.\u00a0 I observe myself.\u00a0 I think society would benefit from embracing what is already here.\u00a0 People, for various reasons, find themselves looking outside of committed relationships for sexual experiences and relating.\u00a0 I would call it normal…for some people.\u00a0 I prefer full transparency.<\/span> In my own marriage woes, I was unable to consider that option.\u00a0 Looking back, I think it would have been much healthier for me to have explored that.\u00a0 Not having sex for nine years does not sound like a picture of health to me.\u00a0 But with the core wounds that most of us carry, it would be hard to live harmoniously in polyamorous or multiple lover situations until those wounds are sorted out.\u00a0 I take responsibility for my own wounds…and my own choices.\u00a0 I could choose differently moving forward… or not.\u00a0 I will let the moment teach me.\u00a0 How I feel will be my guide.<\/span><\/span><\/span>
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Another moral to the story: You only hear yes if you ask the question.\u00a0<\/b>
\n<\/i>Sounds like good advice for me.<\/strong>
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Mr. Backwards Day is bold and playful.\u00a0 The having sex every day thing is something I aspire to.\u00a0 Leave it to my Backwards Day friend to show me how it is done.\u00a0 As in all things, I want to have an open mind about it.\"1003551_508963482524623_138218298_n\"<\/a><\/span> Not sure you can<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0believe everything you hear but I imagine his girlfriend often has a smile on her face. Sounds like fun to me!<\/span><\/p>\n

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P.S. – Found an article quoting re<\/em>search that casual sex can be good for you. <\/strong><\/a><\/span><\/p>\n

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The article opens with a photo of Justin Timberlake’s bare buttock – from the Friends With Benefits movie.\u00a0 You don’t see that everyday…<\/span><\/p>\n

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June 23, 2014<\/span><\/p>\n

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Monday Morning Philosophical Corner with my friend Mr. Swinger- known as Jeff moving forward. I hate using the Swinger title and I received his permission to use his first name.\u00a0 Loved that Jeff read the Plenty of Fish story and contacted me right away for a catch up.\u00a0 He is very insightful:\u00a0 a pleasurable conversationalist.\u00a0 Loved hearing about how his lifestyle saved his marriage.\u00a0 The key, as is so often the case, was transparent authentic communication.\u00a0 The scribe sign was ignited for three quotes from him this morning:<\/span><\/p>\n

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\"1395281_246026182221477_1350490487_n\"<\/a>Another marriage ruined by monogamy.\u00a0<\/strong> <\/em>He and his wife often remark this to each other.<\/span><\/p>\n

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You find what you are looking for.\u00a0 <\/strong><\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

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Love conquers<\/strong><\/em> all.<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

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The swinging lifestyle has left Jeff and his wife happier than they had been prior.\u00a0 He loves his wife.\u00a0 She knows it because he lives it.\u00a0 Not that some issues do not come up but communication and love can melt away any difficulties.\u00a0 True in all relationships no matter what the issue. I had read an article recently stating the same in relation to polyamorous, loving more than one person at a time, relationships.\u00a0 I looked unsuccessfully for it last night. Maybe you can<\/strong> have your cake…and eat it too.\u00a0 Your choice<\/strong>.
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I did find a story where a woman shared her experience of loving a married man.\u00a0 I was shocked at the venom directed towards the author in the comments.\u00a0 A whole lot of judging going on there.\u00a0 Even the\"993904_607051682660103_1674734466_n\"<\/a> author herself gave off that vibe.\u00a0 So no surprise that the readers mirrored it back to her.\u00a0 My take on the story was that the married man chose inauthentically due to fear.\u00a0 He chose the wife over the mistress.\u00a0 Beware the fear-based decisions.\u00a0 But what do I know about his feelings?\u00a0 Only he can know for sure.\u00a0 It often looks like control is a central theme in the relationship game.\u00a0 That does not sound fun or harmonious to me.\u00a0 My current lover is a married man <\/em>so that prompted me to read the story.\u00a0 Gasp.\u00a0 Story coming soon.\u00a0 If<\/strong> I am so inspired.\u00a0 And no, I am not holding my breath that he will leave his wife.\u00a0 That was made pretty clear from the get go.\u00a0 Let’s just say that I am way too curious for my own good…\u00a0 I call it research.\u00a0 <\/strong>Kinda like a cat.\u00a0 I did not chase him.\u00a0 He just \"10448819_319696064863507_7000311300692038606_n\"<\/a>landed at my feet.\u00a0 I think every true writer or artist has taken a lover.<\/em>\u00a0 Am I right?
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Love a quote from Bentinho Massaro:\u00a0 You live in a free Universe.\u00a0 There are no rules.\u00a0 Just follow your Bliss with boldness, compassion and integrity.\u00a0 <\/strong><\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

My addition:\u00a0 Live and let live.\u00a0 <\/strong><\/em>Then we can\u00a0all<\/strong> enjoy Peace on Earth.\u00a0 So simple…
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P.S.S -Loved this article from Elephant Journal, How To Love a Girl Who Doesn’t Know How To Be Loved<\/strong><\/a>.\u00a0 I think it speaks of so many of us both male and female.<\/p>\n

\"Jean-Pierre<\/a>

Jean-Pierre Augier “lover”<\/p><\/div>\n

Learning how to love feels to me to be the most important skill to have or perhaps it is to be love<\/strong>.\u00a0 Love is a state of mind not an action.\u00a0 Maybe a bit of both…<\/p>\n

One woman’s non-discerning is another woman’s loving.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

11th hour find<\/strong>:\u00a0 What is Love <\/strong><\/a>by Haddaway looped video to represent Relationship Systems.\u00a0 Ten hours of listening pleasure.\u00a0 I was done at 2:50.\u00a0 Short video on a loop with Jim Carrey, Will Farrell and another comedian bobbing their heads to the music.\u00a0 Respect to the genius who put this one together.<\/p>\n

I want to break out of the loop!<\/p>\n

July 11, 2014<\/span><\/p>\n

Got my monthly call from my Backwards Day friend last week. Lovely intimate invitation, the first since our frank talk of our sexual lives outside of each other. It was the first time he was inviting me to his acreage. I was a little torn. Wanted to go but my little pesky wound got in the way. I said no… could not come up with a reason that I needed two lovers at once.\u00a0 I had been with my lover the day prior which left me feeling more free to choose. I had an open discussion with my lover since the Backwards Day revelations. He informed me that, I quote, I am free to shag other guys<\/i>. Not the most romantic of thoughts.\u00a0 I adore feeling free, not that I need to exercise that freedom. Being that he is married what else can he really say. We agreed that we would be open with each other if another partner entered the scene. Seemed we were exclusive to each other. My preference I decided. He and his wife had not been intimate for months. Loved when I asked him how often he had sex, his answer \u201cas often as I am with you\u201d. I read that married men are good at committing. I like that in a man. The never married man has a much harder time committing they say<\/b><\/i>.<\/i> Isn’t that Ironic?<\/strong><\/a> In my dating experiences in 2014, I receive the most commitment from the married man.\u00a0 The world is a mysterious place, don’t ya think?
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